Black Page

The joker and the puppet Master

2009-02-19T17:39:00.010+05:30

I have been found guilty as charged.

all the world was a stage for me, and I used to call myself the Director. I would put in actors on stage and make them dance like a puppet.

Puppet master.

Thats what they used to call me.

Then one day, while I was sleeping, I heard a voice. It sounded as if someone was crying somewhere. I woke up with a start. I looked around and saw no one around. By then, the crying had turned into a voice. Someone was trying to speak to me.

It was coming from the wooden box in which I used to keep my sticks. I remember putting the sticks back into the box after the show. There had been a riot scene on stage. Maybe, one of the actors got trapped inside. I opened the box to look inside. There was a small boy sitting inside. He seemed to be made of wood. He was looking at me with looks of anger. As if, I had been the one who had locked him inside.

Then, he spoke.

Are you the director?

Yes...but, how do you know?...and, who ARE you. I have never seen you here..neither are you one of my actors.

Oh, my name is ___*___. I AM one of the actors. But you havn't cast me yet. I have been sitting in this box for some time now. I do not remember the hours or days I have spent in there. All this time, I have been listening to all the shows you have put up from in here, but never got to see the plays. I can recognize all the actors you have casted till now.
But, I never heard your voice. This is the first time i have heard your voice. Thats how I knew you were the director.

Oh, you are smart. I do not remember casting you though. Must be a long time back. Anyways, tell me, what do you think of my plays? i know it might be a bit strange of me to ask from someone who has never seen my plays, but you Surely have heard them. And I have never had a review from a blind spectator.

your plays are good. But they could be better. You know, while I was in there, I also used to hear the audience responces. Lately, I have heard a lot of booing. i think, people have got bored listening to the same voices over and over again. Lets do something. Why don't u introduce me to them. Lets sit there hand have a chat with the audience. Lets make them laugh for a change. Enough of drama.

Lets Put a smile on their faces.

He said with a smile.

And then, I decided to name my Last character.
I called him "The Joker"

2009-02-16T21:55:00.002+05:30

The Bluest of nights is upon us now.

The ominous Rejoice at any given occasion, for they are celebrating the end of an era.

They are welcoming the change that has been brought upon them, the gateway being opened.

Guns and khakis all around, it makes me wonder otherwise, though, whether we really are what we think we are..

Do we really need leashes like dogs to be contained and be trained as a dog is?

I remember being called one of the best brains once..

I guess, the best is not good enough anymore.

___________________________________________________

P.S : The writer wrote this while he was low, not HIGH.

V

2009-02-14T09:54:00.002+05:30

Some ask, Why do we hurt
Some say, it is called pain.

I say, its all dirt,
in love, there IS never any Gain.

You love,
you laugh,
you suffer,
you cry

But in the end, what you do not realize that while you were crying, you were trying to make the other one laugh. While you were bleeding from deep within, some one else was trying to put an end to the wounds which were still green.

------------------------------

Life always moves in retrospective. We live, we die, we tend to remember all of the rest, the question as one of my good friends put it is :

did you have a good life when u died...enough to base a movie on?

Death of the moon

2009-01-19T20:14:00.005+05:30

it has been the strangest of days

decisions and questions all around
i still don't know which way i bound.

i think i know
the road to
the sea

the lady with the harp
the sunrays on the scales.

Tha Clay Coloured one

2008-02-22T05:06:00.001+05:30

the moon turned grey

the ground turned white

the wind changed directions

the dunes were ready to move

the camels trotted on in the moon light

the silver lining was there on the ground then

when the tunes of the harmonium made here dance

wearing a ghungroo she danced

pranced

and made the tribe forget

the journey gone behind

The beedi was gone

the smoke was still there

the fire was burning

and there stood she

in her dancing toes

killing time

killing the cold

i was there

looking at the clay coloured woman

the lady

the girl

the enchanted

the enchantress

the eyes looked on

meeting every other pair there

the old were jealous

the young looked on

the music moved on

the caravan moved on

she stayed there looking

the music played on

the place moved along

while she stayed on.

2008-02-09T20:41:00.001+05:30

The story

Its about a boy

Who wanted to grow up

Its about a man

Who wanted to go back

Its about the dream

Which wanted to come true

Its about the whim

Which wanted to be a fantasy

Its about the sin

Which wanted to never be

Its about the taste

Which wanted to linger on

Its about the ship

Which wanted to sail on

Its about the star

Which wanted to shine

Its about a story

Which never wanted to end.

2008-01-22T11:01:00.001+05:30

Death

Have I met u?

Have I seen u anywhere?

Have u been through this lane before?

Have I ever crossed your path before?

I Am Sure Of one thing though

We are good friends, aren't we?

2008-01-22T10:57:00.001+05:30

Choices

are what we define them.

But do we have a choice

To choose the choice.

2008-01-07T05:10:00.001+05:30

GOD

He just Sits there

And smiles

------------------------------

She just sits there

And listens

LAUGHING

2008-01-07T04:34:00.001+05:30

You and Me

I am u

Ever seen a mirror?

Ever seen a reflection?

Ever met a Girl?

Ever felt a woman?

Ever turned off the lights?

Ever seen the light inside?

Ever knew the answer?

Ever knew the Question?

Ever Felt the origins?

Ever Kissed the serpeant?

Ever tasted venom?

Ever Controlled life?

Ever killed youself?

2008-01-06T11:09:00.001+05:30

Love

U want know the meaning?

Try it

And u will find

What u have been looking for

All u

Its all u

U are the cradle of life

U are the poisonous venom

--------------------------------------------------------------------------

Playing a flute

U emerge from the sea

U take me to the other side

To be one with me

------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I was looking for love

Wander under the hopeless night

Out their in the perimeter

There were no stars

Out there

We were

Immaculate

------------------------------------------------------

Your nose reminds me of a numbers

Your eyes remind me of Poison

Your ears remind me of the waves

Of the sea

And the ripples they cause

Leaving us bashed

Broken

Shattered

Left alone

Living together

------------------------------------------------

Alone was the path assigned

Alone did we come

Alone were we when we perished their

Alone will we do so

------------------------------------------------------------

I know of love

As a feeling

As an energy source

As you

As me

As the brahma

As the Vishnu

As the shiva

As the ganesha

As the sidhi

As the vinayak

As you

As me

As you as me

---------------------------------------------------

2008-01-02T06:17:00.001+05:30

Last day of the placement

Last company

Kicked out of PPT

Attempted 11 out of 30 questions in DI questions

Discussed a wizard of OZ character in Group discussions

Directed a play in Group Simulation

Waited for my Lucky number in Interview

Discussed Spirituality and Meditation with HR business partner

Wrote two essays

Gave a PPT

Disussed Life and Future and Nostradamus

Was selected for human resources team

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I wonder why they call it an interview

2007-12-18T07:00:00.001+05:30

Words

Which I think I have heard

Somewhere

Sometimes

In a dark lonely night

When stars rule over the sun

Only then do they sound so sooth

So lovely, so wonderful

Questions

Answers

Do they matter any more

As we dance under the moon, my lady

We can touch the stars

Rule the sky

Feel our feet on the ground

And rise above the earthly sky

To the heavens above

Living in the clouds

We may see someone calling

Deep inside u I am falling

Words don't matter anymore

No questions

No answers

What are we

But mere mortals

We live

We die

We try to rule the sky

But we do forget

To ask the heart what it says

After all

What else are we

But mere mortals

2007-12-13T17:02:00.002+05:30

The Game

Run, Run, Run

Keep running behind the sun

Try catching it with the

End of the fingers, my son

Don't think of how it feels

Or how it would burn down

The moment u touch it

Just touch it.

----------------------------------

Keep running

Till the end of time.

Keep running

Till u can't climb

Keep running

And never should u whine

And wait for the

Last supper and the wine.

Staring from the death bed

U will find

All this while U were running,

Without knowing the finish line.

2007-11-15T01:51:00.001+05:30

I wanted to let you go
and move on with my life
but I was scared that if I let you go
you wont come back.

And then….

I let go.

: - *

I will always miss u.

The only one to whom I really meant…

Your Truly…

------------------------------------------------------------------------

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end

Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
I'll never look into your eyes...again

-Jim Morrison,The end

2007-11-03T07:34:00.000+05:30

I should have been something more.

I should have doe something more.

Things which I would have been proud of.

This which I had done.

Things which I could have achieved.

Things which I could have seen.

Things which I could have loved.

Things which I couls have earned.

Things which I could have lived a little bit longer.

Love is something which I can’t understand.

Things which I could have expand.

Things I vould have inmand

Things which I could have demand.

THIngs which I could have command.

Man….

I guess..I should love to do this more often.

But I could have shivand.

It shows you heaven it says…

It got my head reeling into the horizon.

I left my sentences incomplete

I don’t know what else to do.

I can’t think of anything…

And I can;’t think of anything else.

It is strange you know…

I just threw away my life…..

I did….

I like dazed and confused..

…or do I..

I am sorry..but I didn’t want to go in this lane..

But why???

Oh..so u want a conversation?

Yes..I do.

See..

Even now, I am blank..But busy.

Hmmm??

Dude..speakup…

I don’t want to..

Beacause I don’t….

U are powerful, U know?

Yes…

But, I don’t want to lose…

And y do u not?

See..u again let yourself drift away….

I am someone who I do not want to be…

Maybe thats y u want to stop writing…

I do…

If u lov yourself so much??

I said I am dazed and confused……

I am out.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------

Marijuana is self-punishing.

It makes you acutely sensitive, and in this world

what worse punishment could there be?

P. J. O'Rourke

2007-10-10T23:31:00.000+05:30

I don't know where my life is heading.

there..I said it.

I may seem as confident, and uncaring as the person next to me,
but now that I realize,
things do notusually end up the way they always do

and I am confused.

I am damn Confused.

--------------------------------

Try looking for yourself 10 years down the lane
Chances are,
U might not find yourself there
..except for a few maybe's....

thats for sure.

2007-10-08T03:20:00.001+05:30

U keep looking for the answer

U look for it everywhere

U whiten your hair for it,

U run in despair

U spent your life looking for something

Which was never supposed to be there

Only to realize one day

That maybe u were wrong

To have looked for an answer all your life

When u should have written the right Question somewhere.

------------------------------------

I had been trying to grope in the dark for something.
I had been searching for it all my life.
I thought I was looking for an answer,
but then I realized,
It was the question rather,
which was missing

2007-09-30T01:02:00.001+05:30

Memories so old
Memories from far
Memories from childhood
Memories to spare...

Cherish them u will
relish them u will
laugh at them u will
cry for them u will...

I was just someone like u
Who did not want to let go

...chrishing them
...relishing them
...laughing at them
...crying for them

I was a child
then I realized
to have stayed with them
..to have played with them

some things are beautiful
...some thing are enimga
some become your friends, some your foe
but then,
....u have to let go...
..u have to let go...

I let go.

---------------------------------------

Forward is the path
which us should follow
Backward is the gaze
which we must keep watch

But never should we stop
for then,
we stop.

Forever

2007-09-25T05:43:00.001+05:30

I look around me as I sit still

Everyone is busy

I sit still and look around me

Life is busy

I look around me and Observe the unusual

The world is busy

I observe the world and close my eyes

I am busy.

----------------------------------------

Find some time for yourself

Maybe that is what we all have been running for

2007-09-16T06:06:00.001+05:30

I know it Sounds strange….

But THIS is what I was thinking at that moment!!!

I really think I hve reached Enlighenment.

Extinct Evolution

2007-09-16T01:06:00.001+05:30

The Advent of machines is at hand. And we can't really deny it. Sometimes, Looking at the future Is more or less like looking at ourselves in a world closer to extinction. And no, I do not usually prophesize doom without justifying it.

Its very simple, the evolution of mankind, I mean. Right since our evolution of the grey cells, we have trying hard to get ourselves in a more and more comfortable world. A world free from worries and discomfort. And in the whole process, we often forget that man is first and foremost an animal. A social animal though, but nonetheless, an animal. Analyzing our pursuit for comfort in the last 200 years, we have moved from walking, to using horses, to cycles, to cars, to bikes and then, well..eventually fly. But at the same time, we have started going backwards. Consider this : We are paying to do what we used to hate to do earlier. How? By running on a treadmill in a gym, that's how. We invented different modes of transportation to make our lives easier. Now, to pay for the side-effects of the comfort we are reverting back to our olden times. Yoga is another such example.

You might be wondering how all this is connected to extinction of mankind. Now, I am not pointing towards any nuclear explosion or a WW III. All I am saying is, eventually, man is becoming more and more Lazy in nature. And as the cycle of an animal goes, he is slowly reducing its Life-span in the pursuit for evolution. He is becoming more and more dependent on Machines for its needs and eventually, As a matter of fact, we will soon cease to be animals anymore. That would be the last stage of evolution. Now, here is a contradiction. Extinction and evolution hand in hand? Well. As I said, There is a logical explanation of everything.

In the near future, Artificial Intelligence will be developed to the extend that it will take over the whole of the labour Force. Work Efficiency will increase manifolds with Machines working 24X7. And what will all the humans be doing? They will obviously be working..but in a very different manner. They will just be the brains of the whole new species they have given birth to : the A.I.

Picture this : All a man has in his room is a screen and a chair (which doubles as a bed) with a voice enabled machinery all around. (Maybe in the near future,even Brainwaves might be possible, who knows..) The machines feed the humans. The computers are all voice enabled. All he does, is look at the screen and speak. The press would be a thing of the past..so will the TV and the Radio. And what does a man do to exercise? Simple : He walks. Bare movement of limbs os what he does to exercise. Now, It might seem laughable that We would Walk for exercise. But even cycling as an exercise was a laughable option in the early 90's.

Move Ahead by about another 100 years. Human as a Physical being is just a body mass connectd to the computers. We are all living in a virtual reality. In a world of computers, where we have our life spans. People work, and move and talk and do every normal day stuff that we do in the virtual reality. It is somewhat like the MATRIX movie. Who knows whether We actually will have a war with the machines or not…After all, The brain of the Machines would have refused to obey us refutable creatures anyways. Just like we all don't like being slaved..do we think they would ?

Its just a possibility. And it just struck me. I don't know how much of it is correct. I don't know how much of it will be correct. But, I do know one thing. We will keep evolving. Not in our physical self though. Physically, we might just be extinct.

Laugh as u might. But who knows….

For, A little Insight to the future Watch this video :

Its called GoogleZON

Phase V to begin…

2007-09-08T05:08:00.001+05:30

Its strange when a person, after coming to an age of 22, starts thinking about turning into a new leaf. Its exactly like a 10 year old thinking about trying to change himself because his mother just scolded him. And as it goes, Its just as difficult.

I have tried redefining my ways for a long time now. And as it goes, It has been a very slow process. That child still remains the same. Its just that the time, place, and reasons have changed. Now, he knows what is right and what is wrong. He also knows what is important to him and what is not. But self Doubt is something which has always crept up to him from behind. Although the path in front remains, The first step is something which is the most difficult. And well, the most consequential step. I know that the path is right. I also know what waits ahead of me in this path. I also know that time runs beside me, trying to overtake me…its just that, maybe, somewhere inside my mind, I don't WANT to give up this way of living which I have een following till now. No worries, No responsibility, No Deadlines, Nothing to care about…Believe me when I say I have been living like a king. The point is, I know it is not going to last much longer. And I don't wat to wait till till the balloon bursts.

I have always believed that life moves in Phases, And whatever happens, happens for a reason. Whatever happens, It takes us forward in a way and we keep evolving, and as most people say, we grow up. But shifting gears, moving from one phase to the other, is something which has always been a difficult thing for me. I never have moved on without nudge. Now, I guess, I have to do it without one.

Hmmm…

Someone had recently asked me here on my blog "what next". I guess I have answered my answer.

Something about cricket

2007-09-06T13:20:00.000+05:30

The only Difference between an Indian Cricket team and an Australian Cricket team is, An Indian team is overjoyed by chasing down a target of 317, while an Australian Cricket team is sad not to be able to chase down a target of 317.

Says a lot about the mindset of the teams, doesn't it?

After all, its all in the mind...isn't it?

2007-09-03T04:27:00.001+05:30

A strange week comes to an end. Another phase beginning? Or just an end…

I guess, I will find out.

Discipline : An error in the society?

2007-08-19T00:45:00.001+05:30

Just the other day, I was wondering about the concept of discipline in the society. And being one of those, who has just finished his summer internship in a company which cuts off your salary by more than half as punishment for being late, I have to confess, I was a bit surprised seeing the way people reacted to something as basic as discipline.

Time and Again, it is taught to us how important Discipline is for betterment of us and for the Society. So much so that some of the knowledge-worthy even stress on the fact that success and Discipline always go hand in hand.

A look around will show that Discipline is all around us. Right from the time tables of School, the working hours in office, to even the time slots on Television. Discipline is almost synonymous to a life-Style. Knowingly or unknowingly, we have all been steel-welded with time. Some say the best known way to tame time is to be Disciplined.

Discipline is not just confined to time. It even emerges in life as Codes of conduct, Rules and many others.

Now a question arises, Is discipline actually necessary in life? Do we HAVE to follow a time frame 24X7 to be happy and be successful? To find the answer we have to look right into the basic reason why we are 'trained' to be disciplined.

Right from the time when a baby can barely walk, certain rules are laid in front of him. 'Don't touch that, Don't do that, Sit straight, Don't make any noise while eating' are some of the very normal things which a parent would tell his child when he is growing up. We have to understand that some of these rules ARE important as being an infant, a baby is not supposed to know what is right and what is wrong. But telling a baby not to do things without telling him 'why' is something which can have a telling effect on him. After all, if a baby is always told not to go to places he doesn't know about, will inhibit the only quality a baby has as an infant: Exploring. Also, if the reasons are given as to 'why he is not supposed to do this', then in a way, we are simply pushing the child towards blind faith.

School is where a child is taught about the world. It is exploration at its next level for them. It has to be understood why the Time table is laid for the children. Why they are made to wear the same uniform and why they are made to stand together in an assembly. After all, like in some countries, the prayers can also be done in the classes. The reason is simple. Same uniform for school teaches them that everyone with them in the school is equal. No matter which caste, creed, religion they belong to, they are born equal. The same reason applies for the Birthday-boy wearing a coloured dress in school. Because it is a special day for him. And the school tries to make him feel special on that day. The assembly lines are again a sign of equality. Prayers ending with the National Anthem are for making the children feel proud to be citizens of India TOGETHER. Everyone is made to sing together for the same reason.

Now the tricky part is the Time-Table which is followed. Right Since childhood, we are taught to follow a time-frame which is emulated even in the official level with specific working hours in most of the companies. But some do not realize that while the working hours are important, coming to the office late or early, hardly makes any difference to the quality of work which is done. Some might argue that right form the school level, we are taught to be on time and hence, we should continue it, but they do not realize that time tables are not for teaching the children the value of time! It is for the sole reason that having so many classes to be taught by a specific no. of people, time slots HAVE to be decided so as to avoid chaos! And children are asked to come to be present in the class before the teacher so that they do not miss anything while they are not present in the class. But yes, teaching the value of time to the children is done by punishing the late-comers. Some teachers do not understand the sole reason of punishing the late comers and they make the child miss the whole class if they are late!

Post school, Even colleges have the system of making the mistake of 'making' the students 'attend' classes by making 75% attendance necessary. They do not realize that in a college a student should be allowed to explore the answers rather that being given long lectures by a teacher who just reads out from the book. One should realize that you never learn from Discourses, U learn from Discussions. Unless u discuss the things being taught, make the students 'think' about the topic, the student doesn't learn anything. The time table system, similar to the school has the same rules. The only Difference is they become more Rigid and students are reduced to Pseudo-Zombies, with most of them sitting in the seats with their mind somewhere else while the back benchers just merge the class-hours with their sleeping hours.

Discipline, as it seems, is just reduced to the 75% attendance, which most comply to with reluctance.

Now the most illogical part (now that I have experienced it), is the discipline in Office. Most of the companies that work projects should realize that their priority is completing the project at hand, rather than seeing which employee is 5 mins late and who is more 'disciplined'. As should be, all the employees have a work assigned to them and they have a deadline to complete it. Irrespective of the quality of work done by the employee, the more 'disciplined' one is given more preference than the other one (as I said, In most companies.)

The foundations of the life-style we are leading were based on certain rules and principles. While on the way, the reasons for the rules were forgotten and what remained was rules which a layman can't make head or tail of.

As is commonly said, "Common sense is not so common anymore."

se7en

2007-04-25T12:41:00.000+05:30

So after my Idea of making a mini series out of my blogs blew right on my face due to too much workload ( Incase u don't know, Some 18 days ago, I had this Idea of making a mini series called 'Counting Backwards', which was supposed to be a compilation of my thoughts and what all happened while I was preparing for my End semester Examination. Sadly, My Part-Lazy Physical self and Part-'Addicted to Futurama' Grey cells got the better of me.), I had decided to not show my face in the blogosphere until my Examinations were over.

But then, The Blog-god(Pronounced as 'blogged') had its ways...namely, Tag.

Maybe Blog-god Knew my love for Madagascar, and so he sent a Giraffe to tag me.

Here goes...

7 things I wanna do in my Lifetime :

Now, when I say 'lifetime', I feel overburdened with too much responsibilty, considering all the accessories that come with it (Pun-intended). But from what I have known till now about me, I guess the under-mentioned make the top 7 easily.

1. Make One of the Best movies of all time. But movie making will never be a full time career for me, considering that Karan Johar (aka K-Jo) is supposedly " One of the Best Movie Makers in India" and Shahrukh Khan (SRK) is the Best actor till date after Amitabh Bachhan.

2. To be The Creative Advisor For A TV Series like South Park or Futurama.

3. Write a Biography. (Trust me..Have a lot to write about.)

4. Perform in a Rock Band in front of a Huge Crowd. (Though the Guitar Skills are still Evolving. :) )

5. Come back to My " Department of Civil Engineering" 10 years from now, meet my professors, and say " In your face" on their faces. :)

6. One of my favorites : Go on stage with Karan Johar and say on mic : "DUDE!!!..U're GAY!! Hahaahahaha!!", and

7. In the end, A yearning : I want to become What I know I can become.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

7 things I can do :

1. I CAN make the movie ( I meant the 'best movie of all time' one)

2. I can become better than the best Civil Engineers my Department is producing, just that I don't have the Time left to start all over again, rectifying all my mistakes.

3. I can quit Smoking if I want to. ( But I don't see the day coming soon.. )

4. I can be a bit more Cleaner than I look. Its just that i need my mother with me..or atleast a wife. I can make do with a Girlfriend too. :)

5. I can go and crash the Scholars Avenue Head Quarters for the crappy news Coverage they are so proud of.

6. If Given the right Circumstances, I can very easily woo Madam Kangna Ranaut to have a little fun with me... the circumstances being me staying in Mumbai for more than 4 days. ( She maybe the Worst Actress in the industry today, but man...She's got the body!!..and She's Dumb too..makes it easier for me :P)

7. I can start up a production house in the near future which covers everything from paper to radio. Anyone Interested..start mailing me now..who knows... :)

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

7 Things I can't do

1. I can't sit in an office and work 9 to 5 like all the others do...man!!..it stinks!!

2. I can't study for an examination in one day until and unless I know atleast Something about the subject. I don't know how others do it...but I can't mug up things without knowing shit about them.

3. I can't stop Cross questioning myself on each and every decision I take until I see the result right in front of me. Man....Sometimes it really wants me to kill myself!! )(Sometimes, that is. )

4. I can't stop making girls feel so special about themselves..unintentionally done though, but sometimes it gives the wrong impession when I start doing the same thing with guys! (I meant making them feel special!!)

5. I can't stop myself from saying what I feel about things, no matter who is in front of me. Now, some of you might feel it is a good thing, put picture me sitting in front of my Professor in a Steel design Class Viva and saying to him, "Sir..I don't think cleanliness and Discipline matter to anyone. It is just a tool which we use to reach to our goal. " Now u can imagine...

6. I can't stop my hands from taking a free stuff...even if it is poison!..All the handouts on the roads make way to my pocket or my bag or my wallet..and in the end, in some corner of my room. And don't ask me about the other stuff. U don't wanna know what I do with them.

7. Lastly, I can't stop myself from dying. Now thats something I really want to do. 'coz the ideas just don't stop coming,and making each and everyone a reality..hmm..dificult. Impossible?? Nyaah..

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

7 Things that attract me to other person

P.S : This is not a unisexual topic.

1. Intelligence!!!...mmm...dunno what it had about it..but man....it sure has some pull!!

2. Pride. U have to be proud about what u do. Doing something which u yourself doubt...man..u have some thinking to do.

3. Conversation Skills. If u're good with words, and well...u make sense (atleast to me, if not the world) then u are in my list..count me in.

4. Outlook. U should have a Viewpoint about everything. And every person looks at things in a different way. I guess outlook of a person is very important.

5. humour. Thats an element which attracts everything.

6. Attitude. The first thing which anyone notices about a person. For the simple reason that it is very simple to diferenciate good attitude from bad attitude. But oflate, even this reasoning of mine has changed. I have seen people with bad attitude as being hailed as the future. So really, Some antennaes have to be fixed soon.

7. Truthful. Lies are important when u are in a profession (or rather in your professor's chamber), but I don't see any reason why people lie about themselves to anyon.If u are so ashamed of the thing u are ying about, then souldn't u get rid of it??

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

7 things I say the most

1. " Kya re...haraamii...kya kar rhaa hai?"...(as said to 80% of my juniors)

2. "kya re, Maad......d"..( as said to all my batchmates)

3. " Areeee nnnaaaaaa" ( surprised..no matter how mild the surprise is)

4. " Bhak L**nda" (While arguing )

5. " Saale...maa ke La**de" ( Usually while arguing )

6. " Bade bhaiyaa...ki haal chaal??" ( introductory gesture to my Super final years)

7. "Kya sir...aap bhi...." (when complimented on..)

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

7 people I wanna tag

1. Bhaatu
2. Vivek Thakur
3. Abhinav
4. Ravi handa
5. Arupananda
(Incidentally Someone called him the "hunk" after watching my Documentary)
6. Rajarshi
7. Ashish

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

P.S : All the comments about anything and everything are my own. Hard feelings and strong reviews are welcome. After all, Blogging and getting noticed helps my cause. :)

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I was supposed to write a separate blo over this, but simply can't resist it.

here's my Directorial debut. This is a tribute to Bhaatu, our Creative Advisor, from the whole of "Kkhuchh Bhii Productions team'. Best of luck for the future. And try not to go in for WW III. (And knowing u, who knows what we are gonna experience now that u have broken loose of the shackles here.)

Enjoiii

Counting Backwards : A prologue and Chapter 1

2007-04-08T16:10:00.000+05:30

With just about Two weeks to go for End sems, and considering the fact that this would be my last chance to hold on to whatever I have left to hold on to to save my face in public, I decided to start the preparations as soon as possible. And to make this one memorable, I decided to start a new Mini Series in my blog. This would be a Countdown to my End-Sems covering What all Eventful happened in these 15 days including what all went inside the very strange Grey matter of mine.

I call it :

Counting Backwards

Before I begin, I should introduce to you some of the charectors U would be encountering while on the way to the D-Day.

Rama *und :

Name : Ramanand Rao, Age 21.

Lives 3 doors next to me, but could be found more often than not in my room.

He looks a bit like a Character Straight out of an anime which have a fat guy who moves around as a sidekick to the main guy, with a large robe. USP of this guy is, he has watched more than 300 movies in the last 10 months. Now this might not seem out of the ordinary to most of the people, who know the type of life people live in IIT Kharagpur ( The people tie the Nupital-Knot with their Computer when they come here, and are in the habit of doing everything, right from friendly chats, arguments, Fights, Sex, Watching movies together, telling the most deep secrets, to fucking them 24X7 till it sometimes chokes to death by the time u reach the end of your life here in KGP.) . But consider this, this guy doesn't have a computer. He watches all the movies in someone else's room. Also, he watches not just any movie. He claims that he doesn't watch the movies the others have watched and liked. He watches the movies which no one have heard of or no one knows about. As he puts it, In his time before IIT, he was not allowed to watch any movies at home. He had not watched a single Hollywood Movie Before Coming here. All he had watched were some Telugu Movies which were shown on the Telly. So, when he came here, he decided to make up for it, which, in the end, resulted in his low GPA.

Also he doesn't buy more than 2 Fags a day but even then, manages to get as many as 8 butts to his lips. COURTESY : Me.

He, more often than not, can be found in my room, sitting on the chair beside mine, rather sitting on the clothes on them, doing...absolutely nothing.

Bhaatu

Name : Anant Singh, Age 24.

My usual Partner in crime (doesn't mean he doesn't hunt alone.). A nocturnal Creature who has got an IQ ranging between 145 and 155, a natural talent in Dramatics, a Shiv-Bhakt( if u know what i mean :) ),an avid music fan and someone who is trying to mug up the Wikipeida.

Lalit:

Ex-G.Sec Maintainence, Nehru Hall of Residence(Considering the HCM has been dissolved after the Nehru-RP row.) The cleanest at heart in the hall, the dirtiest in appearance ( used to spend most of his time in his last year with Nariyal, the Sweeper of Nehru hall as he was the Mainti.), the most hardworking, and the guy with the worst luck.

Since yesterday was as eventful as the days to come, Here is Day 16 for u.

Counting Backwards : 16 days to go

Day begins with me waking up with a head-ache after sleeping at 5 in the morning. With the Alumnis roaming around in the hall, I knew I had no chance to start my Magnanimous Plan today. So decided should Continue my Movie Spree which had started 2 days ago (had already watched 7 movies in 2 days). So started with a movie which me and Rama had left unfinished,

Alfred Hitchcock's Rear Window

An Alfred Hitchcock Classic,which rates at no. 13 at the IMDB 250.
Simple story with excellent Cinematography (which I noticed considering my new found interest in movie-making). The story revolves around an army officer, with a broken leg, sitting in front of his BIG window at the back of his apartment peeping into every apartment he can lie his eyes upon, which seemed to be the only mode of enterntainment for this guy, considering this guy had no Television at home, not even a radio!

A maid, prophetizes that he would get into trouble if he continues to act as Peeping Tom,which, as is the norm of most of hitchcock's movies, comes true. This guy finds the lady in the front apartment missing and his husband, quite curiously, packing bags, wrapping saws in newspapers, and going out in the middle of the night and coming back 3 times. The whole story was clear with not even half of the movie gone. And their has to be a dog in each of his movies! This time it was the landlady's dog who sniffed around in the garden and was killed in the middle of the night by someone. Another Mystery to be unravelled by our hero, who shows the Analytical Skills like Jupitor Jones in The Three Investigators.

Though I knew what all was about to follow, I was simply fascinated by the Cinaematography, which, as is the standard of any Hitchcock's movies, is fantastic.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

So, a movie finished before I could brush my teeth. Not a bad start to a day which was see 3 more movies in a row.

the 2nd in row was :

MADAGASCAR

This was one of the finest movies which I have come across, animation non-withstanding. Each character in this movie is original and different from each other. And well...its gud to watch a comedy after an Alfred Hitchcock thriller.

THe story revolves around a steak loving lion (Alex), a Zebra (Marty) who is confused whether he has black stripes over white or white over black, a bossy and the only sensible of the lot Hippo (Gloria) and a Giraffe (Melman) who takes medicines for food. They are the stars in a Zoo in New York. They believe that New York is their Natural Habitat except fot Marty,who wishes to go to the wild on his 10th birthday and all hell breaks loose when his wish comes true. The other charectors include a gang of 4 Penguins, who intend to get out of the zoo and have a mission to go to Antarctica, n actually managing to Hijack a ship and take it there!

Dreamworks does it again.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

It was already dinner time and I had Not even read a cipher of the book I had opened while the movie was going on. So Decided to have dinner and then Do what I should have done till now.

8:40 PM :

Lights on in C-307. I am sitting in front of my table thinking what I should start first.

Knock on the door

Enter Badani

( G.Sec Sports Candidate, Gymkhana elections, 07-08 and now G.Sec Sports Candidate, Nehru Hall elections, 07-08)

Me : Kya hua?
Badani : Aapke wing ka Match hai 11:30 se 2nd years ke saath.

Me : 11:30? ( Thought Process : No use starting to study now...will not finish any topic by that time..)

Badani : Haan...

Me : Ok..baaki wing mein bol de.

Exit Badani

(For those who do not know, Night Cricket by the name of Thunderbolt goes on in Nehru hall and the coveted prize of the winner is bottles of Thunderbolt, hence the name.)

The rest of the time till 11 is spent thinking what should I watch next and
browsing the Web.

Night time post thunderbolt :

After Bowling Figures of 2/10 in 2 overs and 20 runs of my bat in some 15 deliveries(and thinking of starting my cricket career once again), A lost match as a Captain against 2nd years chasing 75 off 8 overs, a Bhaat session on the cricket ground with the alumnis, and 2 packets of Navy Cut in my Pocket, I entered back to my room to find its just 2 AM. So decided to Continue my Movie Spree sans Rama.

The Big Lebowski

A Fantabulous Comedy rated at 174 in IMDB, I watched in amazement and amusement to what this movie had to offer.

The story revolved around one of the laziest guys around, by the name of Jeff Lebowski (He doesn't want to be called by his name. He likes to be called 'The Dude', who has nothing else to do in his life except Bowling. The trouble begins when he gets mistaken for a Millionaire by the same name,who has a porn-star wife. The Whole story begins with 'the dude' going to th millionaire Lebowski to ask him to compensate for the rug on which the guys looking for the millionaire had peed upon. From then on, its a complete roller-coaster ride complete with abduction of the wife, a porn Mafia who want to cut off his 'Johnson', a Daughter of the millionaire who practices strange Yoga techniques to concieve, and in the way, makes 'the dude' have sex with him so that he could be the father to the baby. To top it all, his best problem is a Maniac who points a gun at anybody's head who doesn't follow the rules. All the blocks fall into place in the end, with the climax showng a fight between the Mafia and 'the dude' for $18.75!!

Man..when will they start making movies this good here in India.

Post Lebowski :

About 4 AM..

With n sleep in my eyes, another movie wouldn't hurt. So ended up watching the new added movie on DC, 'Tom and Jerry : The magic ring'.

A not-so-impressive animation with a weak storyline, I fell asleep while watching this one.

Post Mortem :

So, at the end of the day, with 15 days to go for the End Sems, I managed to finish 3 and a quarter of movies and am still to start up on my so-called academic activity.

Points Given for the day : (-4/10)

Rashmi Bansal : A Girl Next Door

2007-03-31T17:10:00.000+05:30

Sitting in the workshop of Rashmi Bansal, doing nothing but watching lesser mortals type down what they did when they woke up how at what time they brushed, can make u a bit frustrated at the fact that this was a workshop for 'Bloggers', for god's sake!

So, here's how i Passed my time in the workshop, Writing about the Host herself, Madam Rashmi Bansal :

Rashmi Bansal: The first time u read her blog, u will be amazed by the simplicity of the blog and how words can be woven so simplistically so as to make a precise opinion about anything.
I got to watch her and well..had a short conversation with her. An here's what i could make out of her :

She is someone who was supposed to be a next-door gril but fate porpelled her into stardom, in a sense. And, the way i loomat it, she still thinks luck and God have been a very important part of her life.

She went to a proper English Medium School and was one of the girl-next-door type of a student. She was never out of the ordinary, till I guess, the time she reached 10th. She was one of the Good Students and was most probably involved in Literay Events from about 6th or 7th.

She did her college from somewhere good (Don't know where though) and those 4-5 years in college changed her life completely. Knowingly or Unknowingly, She got to pick up a lot from her Alma-Mater, a thing which she still acknowledges, and having a vision and going on to do it has never been a problem for her.

She was, and still is, never interested in fame. She lives her own life in her own right, not caring what others thing what they think about her. The way I look at it, she never took journalism as a profession as a "profession", but just because she likes having her point of view.

About her family, according to me, She has had a very open Family, open to all types of thoughts, and her parents always wanted her to handle her own problems, A thing which She, according to me, still tells her children to do. A very proud person from the very start, She was more interested in extra-academic Activities. According to me, She was more interested in music than movies. I still think that her choice of movies which some of the people (like me) will not agree to, but well...atleast she can write about the things that matter.

:)

Stumbled on a 'Firewall'

2007-03-30T16:28:00.000+05:30

With nothing to do on a hot friday afternoon, I sat down to watch a movie. Usually I tend to watch movies which are recommended by others, a habit which I have been trying to lose for quite some time. So, this time I decided that I should find something Completely out of the blue. A bit of keyboard work and a few clicks afterwards, I came across this Name 'Firewall'. Sadly Firewall was a movie I had started to watch some months ago but could not cross the 'Village Roadshow pictures' Logo. But with no other choices, apart from a few telugu movies ( and i was in no mood of watching heroes with 38 inch waist fighting with lungis and that too with subtitles!), I Settled for that.

This movie is of directly out of the old recipe book, added with New Generation Masala which I call the new-age Action Movies. It is complete with High-End Technology, A smooth touch of violence with a wee bit of bloodshed added to it. And to top it all, A master of crime, who is Ruthless and Merciless. He even Shoots his teammates if they fail to do what they are told.

The movie is a simple movie of how a few tech guys try to steal some money out of a bank by holding the manager's family hostage and how the manager manages to rescue them. But the whole touch of Village roadshow converts it into a superhero-supervillain fight, with super sophesticated programming done in a matter of hours by taking a video of all the account nos. in the bank going down a monitor, converting the video screen data into real nos. using a program which Harrison Ford,yes, the 67 year old, a bit wrinkled but seeming to have superhuman power of punching men through walls ( they were wooden and old, to add the reality touch.) had written in a matter of 2-3 hours, and then from the account of all those having money more than a certain amount, they will transfer 10,000 dollars from each account into their one. The plot is not over. The kidnappers have sleek Guns and sophesticated gadgets , including the popular pen camera, an audio cable to hear all u speak, some cellphones and thousands of cameras spread all around the city.

Harrison Ford Seems to be a superhero in her own right. Imagine a father of 2 children, punching guys to knock off their teeth, Kill a man with a mixer-jug by hitting him thrice with it, and that too, without remorse..complete with the anger in his face. He even punches people through walls, has a climax fight with the main-villain with jaw breakig blows and a run for the pistol, and then, Kills the villain with a .... believe it or not!!!...an Axe!

The mother, a housewife, sort of telepathically knows what her huband was going to do to rescue them, makes up an elaborate scheme of escaping complete with making dummies out of pillows and then going through the walls and switching off the lights and then trying to escape through the garage. But here too, The villain, played by Paul Bettany, know about their escape and stops them.

There are 2 children in the movie, a 10 year old boy and a 14 year old Girl. The boy, who seems to have inherited his fathers higer intelligance, shows signs of growing up into a superhero himself. The daughter, in her sweats, shows waht it takes to be an ideal daughter and sister.

The whole Climax fight takes place in an old house in a lonesome lake-side, the location of which is not shown on GPS! THe best part was the windows panes, which, all through the fight scenes were shown to be covered with plastic, broke with glass falling when the hero or the villain fell through! A bit or observance revealed that some window panes, on which the hero was supposed to fall, had glass on them, and the rest of them were plastic. The walls broke with complete rectangular blocks of wood falling with the villain. I can't imagine that sort of a stable house with those sort of wood man.. A trench was dug all around the house with an axe right in the middle of nowhere! Clear sky with a full moon was giving a sort of 'Clash of titans' feel.

This is among the very few movies I have watched for complete fun..and well..the unexpectancy level just added to the fun.

Taking normal people out of day to day life, increase the intelligence, power, emotion levels by about 10% in every character, set them in a plot of the 60s, throw in some sophisticated Gadgets and u have a complete Masala movie in your hands.

Now thats what i call Entertainment.

Stumbled on : 3 :

2007-03-26T07:00:00.001+05:30

A clever Form of petition.

clipped from oubliette.alpha-geek.com

Stumbled on : 2 :

2007-03-25T09:34:00.001+05:30

A Very Clever Anti Smoking Campaign

clipped from bp3.blogger.com

Stumbled on : 1 :

2007-03-24T07:57:00.001+05:30

The first of the series.

clipped from img187.imageshack.us

An Article From West Indies..

2007-03-20T23:50:00.000+05:30

Trinidad and Tobago express

APRIL 28, 2007

IRELAND LIFTS WORLD CUP 2007

Barbados : Who could have thought that a horse who, everyone thought was a lame, went on to win the Breeder's cup. Ireland have Beaten West Indies in the finals Of the cricket World cup, And no one in the cricket Fraternity is able to believe what they have seen. One could not have found a better tie than this one to say good bye to a scintillating series like the World Cup. Having been made to field by Brian Lara, Ireland, displaying superb agility in the field, restricted West Indies to 234 and managed to get the total with 9 balls to spare and 3 wickets in hand. This is the Biggest Upsets of all Times.The Irish have proved that with the Zeal to succed, Nothing is impossible.

The Irish Captain, Trent Jhonston's Feelings could well be seen at the Bridgetown cricket stadium as the whole team huddled around a captain who, with tears in his eyes, sat on his knees having made History, making his whole nation proud. The whole stadium stood up on their feet, clapping, to ackowledge the hard work that the Irish team had put in their performance. Johnston, still red faced with joy and tears, said," This is the best day of my life. I think we have done something really special today. I knew my boys are gonna deliver, But i Still can't imagine winning the WORLD CUP!". The Coach, Adrian Birrell, said his team had worked hard and have given a performance that will be remember for a long, long time to come. The Losing Captain, Brian Lara couldn't believe his eyes as he himself confessed later that "they were too good today."

Ireland ripped through an army of mammoth giants with teams like Australia (which was then called the biggest upsets of all time), Pakistan, Sri lanka and West Indies.

One could feel the ripples this small thunderstorm was about to cause in their first tie with Zimbabwe. No one expected a Team playing their first World cup Match ever, to Slice out such a sensational display of wonderful team-work, coupled by an even wonderful captaincy. The first indication came when they caused a huge upset by humiliating The Asian Giants, Pakistan, first by bowling them out on 132, and eventually leading to them leaving the world cup even before they could make it to the Super 8. This match made everyone sit up and take notice. The assaults continued as Ireland stormed into the Super 8 with one defeat againt West Indies and into the arena of Super 8, taking Heavy weights like Australia and South AFrica Head On.

Each and every performance of this fresh and young team of Ireland has been a treat to watch, each resulting in nail-biting finish. While the First match ended as a tie, the second match with Pakistan finished with them having been won with 3 wickets in hand. they lost their First against the West indians falling short by 12 runs. The match with Australia in the super 8 was a spectacle with Australia, failing to make the mark, losing by 53 runs and Ireland showing the world that no team is unbeatable.

At the moment, when the Cricket World had been taken over by Commercialism and Media, and Cricket, the Game, having been taken a back seat for most of the players in the world, The Irish team brings a new sense of Ideas and virtues into the world of Cricket. It has shown to the world how a Game should be played. All it needs to play a Game is Passion. Money has got nothing to do with it.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Warning

The author doesn't take any responsiblity of the events mentioned above. DO NOT bet on the teams based on any data used in this article. If u do, Please do so after Contacting me, So that, in case u win, atleast i can claim my share.

:)

Choreographing Life

2007-03-18T17:29:00.000+05:30

Last few days were spent doing dramatics for my choreo team!. ANd,well..have to say those were one of the very few days when I actually had some fun in that 'wretched' Common room of ours.

The usage of 'wretched' here is complemented by the fact that i was the Secretory, Dramatics Sub-Committee, Nehru Hall Of Residence. I have nothing against the post and neither do i have any problems against the high standards they demand, but think of having a Daku and gunda as your hindi dramatics captains!!! Last year, I had to make the common room as my second home due to me being needed atleast 8 hrs minimum in the common room!!

So, coming back to the choreo, This was, as the judge commented, one of the best coreo teams she had ever seen. In her own words,"...U people should not waste your talent constraining yourself in IIT. I request u all to try for the National level. Please do not waste this talent here."

As has been the routine of the last 2 years since i have been associated with the dramatics in Nehru Hall, More halls, infact all the teams this time, tried to make their choreo look like Nehru halls by literally copying the steps and formations from the Nehru Hall choreo Video On DC++. I mean, consider this : A tall guy trying to imitate Chida as the school teacher and scolding a very bad replica of whoever was trying to play Sherpa's role, in his epic choreo against education.

But ours....as usual the newest and the strangest and the best idea of them all...as usual. COnsider this...16 people completed covered in Silver!!!(I call them my Silver surfers.)

Silver Surfers

Their entry on stage was BEEEEG!!! WIth Bhaatu playing the Devil as usual,Making the entry with the straps of each silver surfers in his each silver surfer in his hand while they acted as mad pets who kept trying to get hold of rajesh!

The Grand Entry

I, as usual was surprised when I was called in fora part in the team considering I was one of the worst dancers in the teamlast year. Ifact, so bad was I, That Sam Bose, My captin had once said," Maa kasam...aaj ke baad agar tum team mein rahaa to main nahi karoonga choreo!!"

I was the Evil business man who had to first, beat up the Shoodra, Rajesh out of his wits first..which i did to perfection) and then had to get a picture of mine with him...and a dance step!!...revolving a Big red cloth over my hed as i had to go around rajesh 4 times..and then run out of the stage before the music ends..that was it...But man...was it fun!!

Beating Rajesh Up with Abhigyan (reporter), and Soumen (Politician)

Giving job to the Shoodra

The second years were Fabulous..and the Hard work they put in was unbeliveable!! Hats of to my Second years except for the one who, tchnically speaking, should have been responisble for it...my dramatics secy, Nitin Garg. Man..I have to define new levels for Low Brain-capacity!!
Man..Dhanno had asked him to but the pack and give the cigerettes one by one to whoever askes for it as the pack was from the drams budget.thig guy was sent to get a pack of cigerettes at 10 PM and this guy, after being called repeatedly, was found preparing for his next-day test in Patel at 1:30. And the reason he gave was "Dhanno ne kahaa tha ki sutta khareedne ke aad apne paas rakhna..dena mat!!..to maine socha ki kisi ko dena nahi hai.Isiliye khareed ke main padhne chalaa gaya."

Anyways..The man who was responsible fot the spectacle, Siddarth Sherpa. This guy is true Genius. By looks, He is one of the juice in his batch and has a massive female contacts!!..and man..he can act..and dance..!! And how creative he is, is complemented byt he fact that he got calls from A, B and C from IIMs this time.

Bhaatu, Sherpa and Rajesh

And with this, we are very well on road for creating history in the IIT KGP social and cultural circuit, by making a first clean sweep ever. One event left (Inter Hall Hindi Dramatics) and we will have got 475 points out of 475 points...winning Gold in All the events of Dramatics cup.

U can find the whole album here :

Inter hall CHOREO Gold

interhall choreo nehru 2007

As has been the tradition, we, being the only hall to give the tempo shout inside the auditorium, again did it in fashion :

The famous Nehru Tempo-shout after choreo win

In the end..I leave u with this :

Next stop..the moon!!

P.S: I couldn't find a suitable title, so put a heavy one...nothing to do with high funda stuff like life, man...enjoiii.

A sentence

2007-03-10T19:12:00.000+05:30

....the process going through the 161 exabytes of data generated last year in the internet totally ,( Courtesy : The Hindu) I came through this which made me think whether i should try to take an attempt on what this Gentleman has tried to exhibit with his (a)mazing art of Writng by trying to do which most of us will never even think is possible, but yet is not unbelievable as it exists and is so simple that we think is so simple that it is ignorable, it almost feels like the complexities of simplicity which makes realize that what seem to us is simple, like a bicycle, is actually a very sophesticated balance of the dynamics of Gravitation, Rotation, Gyration, Inertia, Force, Moment and if we want to go a bit more deep will also include things like the exact psychology behind the way we percieve the road in front of us, the role of the position of the stars when we are sitting on the black, somewhat hot, seat of the old, yet, still on the road, cycle and stuff which we cannot even start comprehending which makes me realize the truth about life and everything which we keep looking for everywhere else might actually be something so simple that a 2 year child knows it; and in a way, keeps laughing at us looking at us stupids, who keep trying to make simple things complicated but as it goes, they evolve into one of them which,in a way, symbolizes decay indicating even human rot ,which is in complete harmony with its Definition of life as what is alive, as to die in some way or the other , either by accident, wherein the surrounding acts as abjects of demise for those who believe themselves to be indestructible or by nature which, if we analyze our thoughts properly behaves as god itself and sets the rules of the world and well, as i see it, gives the command in our hands after making the rules and watches us as we destroy ourselves by our own hands and then blame themselves for being an aethist, like the

The day when "I" Was proven Wrong...

2007-03-05T10:26:00.000+05:30

Sometimes it happens when u know u have done something wrong and u want to go back and remodel the past the way u want it to be.

It just so happened that i happened to come across this blog in one of the blogger communities in orkut. It seemed to be a pretty normal blog in the beginning and well, I guess we exchanged 3-4 scraps at about 2 am in the night exchanging pleasentaries and well...ending the conversation abruptly, don't know why.( 'coz obviously, a guy won't end a conversatioin with a female abruptly unless it is from the opposite end that this has happened.) . I just dismissed her as another one of the egregarious types who wanted to be left secluded in their cocoon of life and moved on..

So i was pleasently surprised and well....kinda jealous when Out of nowhere i visited her blog again today (I guess After about 3 months) and Quala!!

Here's my find :

The Day I Was Proven Wrong

Seems Madam Aparna was not Joking when she said she took her writing seriously!!! Her BLog posts have been converted into a book...

Congrats grl...i always liked your writings..just tht..i was abit too naughty to accept it...

Mannn....I envy u!!!

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Man...i still can't understad the concept of trafficking in blogs. Does the number of people visiting your blog actually matter rather than the No. of people who actually care to read your musings?

A Wacky-weekend And a Tag of a NET-FRIEND...

2007-03-04T10:08:00.000+05:30

For those who missed me…I have had a loooooong week..especially the weekend being a bit too nectic for a lazy-ass DAWG like me who had to run to Kolkata and come back to KGP in 2 days flat which included a jam-packed train journey to Kolkata, 2 abusive fights with passengers, an over-bearing Taxi-driver and a very verrrrry relaxing body masaage with me sleeping for 15 straight hours after that..

And for those who didn’t miss me….well…

Do u care anyway???

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Now this portion of my blog is dedicated to a fellow blogger of mine who just happened to meet me a few days back…(well, I don’t exactly remember which way it was, me meeting her or her meeting me..but do I care??) and well…being a pretty normal guy and a kolkata resident, wen I told her that I will be coming down to kolkata and asked her whether she could spare some verry idiotic moments for me (not even precious!!) , her reply was a pat NO!!....The reason being me being a “NET-FRIEND” and not a “REAL WORLD FRIEND” (special emphasis on double quotes!)

And well..this was the exact reply of hers “yeah i do differenciate between net friends thats da virtual world and reality....nothing personal but cmon u gotta agree 90% ppl here r fake....arnt dey....so its not my fault if i wanna stay on da safe side...evn if u r a nice chap...”

Now that made me think….(though not at that very moment ‘coz well…anyways I had asked it just as a formality given the tight schedule in which I was traveling) the reasons why she didn’t want to meet me. So here were some of the reasons which I could come up with :

1.A DUAL PERSONALITY!! :

If NEO can have it…anyone else can!!

Maybe she Lives the two lives that Thomas Anderson A.K.A Neo used to love...u know..one in the real world and the other in the computers...

Emulating Agent smith “ I see Miss $@@4!n! , I see u have been living two lives…

in one world u are a common college girl who goes to college when it is open, comes home and has food, helps mother with some chores and the rest..i don’t think thay ask u to do anything anyway..being the only daughter (if I am not wrong!) u are frustrarted from some things which u don’t like…and u try to find ways to vent out your anger. U try to find ways to bend realty in surrealism and your study interest has opened a portal for u through which u look beyond the glass mirror and try to tumble down the Rabbit hole.

In the other World, U are a blogger..and a good one at that. U write down things which u can’t say ti anyne else…u want to make the world ..well.infact your blog-space a better space with more and more writings..trying to make the space..atleast this one…..your own. "

Hmmmmm…

2. LOVE-SHUV AND ALL THAT :

She thinks I will try to woo her into love or something ….And if she thinks so…man!!!...does a person have to have a sticker on his head which says “OCCUPIED”????

I doubt I give those type of vibes to anybody anyways…and well..love??...umm…without even a “first sight”???...thts y u call it “blind” love I guess…

3. KILLER ON THE MOVE :

Last but very well maybe possible,...Maybe she thinks I am a very sophisticated contract-killer who makes contact with the subject and befriends him/her before he makes his move….

If they give a knife with a fork..is it my fault???

Maybe she mistook my instincts to be my profession!!...happens.. 

So anyways, Madam, If u are reading this, I cudn’t have met u anyways…

U WIN…

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

P.S : Home always makes me want to quit smoking..but I guess it requires a lot of Will power to do that…SO have tried Amassing as many WILLS as possible…doesn’t work tht way…

:)

P.S(2) : Me back on the Blogosphere…YEEEEEEEEEEHHAAAAAAAAAAA..

My keyboard is back!!! (For those who didn’t know..i was working with the on-screen keyboard for I dunno-how-long..seemd like eons to me!!) My lappy keyboard doesn’t work in my case…and well..my favorite keyboard was back after some tweaks.. !!

Mmmmmmmmmm…..the fingers feels gr88888…

Weirdest of them Al...

2007-02-19T11:46:00.000+05:30

Ever heard of someone named "wierd al"??

well...he is the american version of our "dewang patel"..only he can sing well..infact very well!!

he has made parodies of some of the best songs of all time including Nirvana, Michael Jackson and Dire straits...

So i was very pleasently surprised to find the parody of one of my favorites "Money for Nothing"

And the best part is the Videos match too!!!

Dire Straits :Money for Nothing

Wierd Al's version

ZOD your SEXINESS!!!

2007-02-18T14:56:00.000+05:30

Having a Habit of deleting all the idiotic forwards, seldom i come across some real funny stuff.

Well..this was one of them.

This one tells u about your Sexual Habits according to your Zodiac sign!!

Once you have opened this email, there's no turning back. Below are
true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35
years ago by an astrologist predictionist. Read your sign, then forward
this in a new bulletin with your zodiac sign and label, or you'll get
bad
luck for the number of years stated in your sign description. This is
real shit, try ignoring it, and the first thing you'll notice is having
a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from
there.

___________________________________________________________________________________

.:VIRGO:. The Virgin

Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves them right now. Freak in
bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Intellectual.
Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget Love at first
sight.
Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate
sexiness. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
___________________________________________________________________________________

.:SCORPIO:. The sex addict

Can be mean. EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future.
Most erotic. (Freak in bed.) (GREAT kisser.) Always get what they want.
Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships.
Talkative. The sexiest ever....Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck if
you do
not forward.

___________________________________________________________________________________

.:LIBRA:. The lame lover

Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is
one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most
caring person you will ever meet! Amazing n Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing
in
Bed? not the kind of person you wanna #### with... u might end up
crying... the most irresistible. 9 years of bad luck if you do not
forward.

___________________________________________________________________________________

.:ARIES:. The Liar

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontanious. Not one to #### with. Erotic. Funny.
Take you on trips to the moon in bed. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY sexy.
Loves being in long relationships.=) Addictive. Loud. best in bed. 16
years of bad luck if you do not forward.

___________________________________________________________________________________

.:AQUARIUS:. Does it in the water

Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in
long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will
exceed your
expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. Amazing in
bed, THE BEST LOVERS BETTER THAN EVERYONE! 2 years of bad luck if you
do not forward.

___________________________________________________________________________________

.:GEMINI:. Does Twosomes

Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed. Lover
not a fighter, but will still knock you the #### out. Trustworthy.
Always
happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has
a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. ULTRA SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTABLE.
9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

___________________________________________________________________________________

.:LEO:. The Lion in bed

Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is
really good at. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth.
Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships.
Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years
of bad
luck if you do not forward.

___________________________________________________________________________________

.:CANCER:. The Cutie

MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high ### appeal. Great in bed!!! Love is one
of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet!
Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed.
Spontaneous. Great tellin stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your
lights out
if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad
luck if you do not forward.

___________________________________________________________________________________

.:PISCES:. The Piece of ass

Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very
high ### appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep.
Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good
way.
Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. A partner for
life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular.
Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

___________________________________________________________________________________

.:CAPRICORN:. The passioate Lover

Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future.
Irrestible, awesome kisser. Loves being in long relationships. Great
talker.
Always gets what he or she wants. BY FAR the BEST in BED. Very sexy.
Coolest. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke.
Loves to be your first. So you'll never forget. Smart. 24 years of bad
luck
if you do not forward.

___________________________________________________________________________________

.:TAURUS:. The Tramp

Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find! Loves being in long
relationships.=] Likes to give a good fight for what they want.
Extremely
outgoing. Sexy as ........ Loves to help people in times of need.
Outstanding
kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as .........
Most caring person you will ever meet! One of a kind. Not one to ####
with. Are the most sexiest people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you
do not forward.

___________________________________________________________________________________

.:SAGITTARIUS:. The Sexy one

Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when
found. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to
give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to
everyone
They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own
unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in
Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? Not the kind of person you wanna # #
# #
with you might end up crying.4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SO WHICH ONE ARE U??

(P.S: Me a Libran..and definitely NOT a LAME LOVER!!)

Visual DNA...

2007-02-16T23:03:00.000+05:30

Whoever Said Pictures don't tell a story was terribly wrong.

Stumbled on this site while moving

in a sleepwalking spree

Loved it.

Something really different from the

Normal stuff on the Net.

U'll love it.

Thanx to the friend who

showed me the way.

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

ABOUT ME

From their Perspective :

A night Well worth....

2007-02-13T04:23:00.000+05:30

I think the trip to BARODA actually had some good effect on me after all. For i was walking down the well carpeted Library Hall at 8 in the night for the first time in the life. And for what!!...u guessed it right!..SELF STUDY!!!...

man...things people do for LOVE!!!

But i guess love changes u..for good.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

After Library closed down at 10..the unthinkable happened!!

SOHAIL KHAN WAS SEEN ENGROSSED IN STUDY IN F-127!!!

well...i have to admit that though it brought back some memories of my PRE -JEE days, it was fun!!!..
I mean, how often do u see a couple trying desperately to kiss each other without distracting anyone in a room having just one more guy...and with the guy sitting right behind them! I guess they wanted to move to some other part of the room to make out, but figured i would be able to make out the difference and the reason of the sudden shifting of places. So they decided to do it right in front of me!! Too bad i had given my Sony Ericsson for servicing...man!..i missed my mobile camera.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I managed to finish a whole Syllabus of Enviornmental Engineering without any hiccups...well..almost made it.

I guess even God has his ways to show us the way. Just when i was thinking of leaving the last topic of the Syllabus for the next day as my habit goes of leaving Leftovers, Guess what...i heard rain drops!..at 3 in the night!..in December! You guessed it right... God was listening to "The Rain song" I guess when he decided to use his powers and all my plans of going to my room and having a well deserved sleep after a night out went out of the window in a flash.

But i am not the one who can be moved from his decision. I was determined not to Complete that leftover topic. So i went out for smelling my first Night shower with my IPod in my ears and practically singing "God Doesn't want me for a sunbeam" followed by "American Pie" and "Turn the page" with a Cigerette in my mouth. (Later I noticed the same couple Standing enjoying tthe wind and each others company..and most of all..my vocals as i half lyp-synched and half sung the songs. The lady in Red was Smiling...thought i should bow down to them for my performance and put out my hat for any donations..but then, decided against that. ;-) )

Man!!!..That wind made my day...(Rather night!)...It had been Eons since I had Had so much of satisfaction of getting my hair wet.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Arup was supposed to join me in my Library Expedition with my laptop to study his slides but had withdrawn at the last moment siting problems of the security not letting the laptop pass into the library. In the end he ended up in his bed half crawled reading the slides in the lappy.

At 4 in the morning when I returned to his room to get the Laptop I found him in a some-what Sleeping Dog Position on the Ground on his chatai with the laptop on stand-by and looking up at me as if he has suddenly Seen a Martian asking for his Spaceship. (The martian being me and the Spaceship being the Laptop.)

Anyway, I got him up on his feet with some Tech-music-Mag talk..the way he likes it, and then we decided to Light up our New Found Fascination - PIPE!

So we lit our pipes in the Lobby and were discussing Which is the bst romantic song of all time wen Out came our Mallu - Mr. Robin Anil. In his typical red Barmuda clinging on to his hips nad his Hawaiian Underwear peeking at us from up above, he Some ow managed to blabber out the golden words :

"Bloody Muggers...Doing a SHERLOCK HOLMES in the middle of the night? "

So atleast somebody really appreciated all the hard work we put in to learn the now-almost-extinct art of smoking pipes.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2007-01-30T17:01:00.000+05:30

Life...as I knew it.

Courtesy : Inter Hall English Play "Mareech" Lights Rehearsal

The play went on to win :

INTER HALL GOLD

BEST ACTOR

BEST SETS

BEST DIRECTOR

how open minded do u think u are???

2007-01-02T04:03:00.001+05:30

Just back to Kgp after An excruciating wedding, hangover of a re-union and the fear of me Getting another Panji tomorrow(oooops..rather today.), I was unable to sleep yet again.

So at 4 in the morning, with a headache, a red-eyed me at in front of the comp. trying to find something worthwhile to go through to keep myself from being torn apart from within.

And then, i stumbled through this.

http://www.blogthings.com/howopenmindedareyouquiz/

This link gives u the Precise Percentage of your Open Mindedness. And guess what i found out!!

You Are 64% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

And to think that i used to think myself to be a 100% open minded person.

i still have some ground to cover i guess....

He He He

Imagination Unleashed: Bittersweet

2006-12-09T01:13:00.000+05:30

Imagination Unleashed: Bittersweet

nice work.

i was thinking of something to write for the song nagraj was thiking of composing.
i think this is a pretty good option for tht.

lets see...

if i couldn't write anything, i would give this a serious thought.

South Park - Revamped!!

2006-12-04T07:52:00.000+05:30

On our 16th dayand 10 seasons of South Park (and some seriously interesting research about its creation and creators, thanx to VH1 for its doucumentary , Wikipedia for its fascinating information and ofcourse, my partner through thick and thin rings of smoke...Bhaatu!) later and still seeking for more, i decided to join the south park fan club in orkut. As goes my habit of not being satisfied with a mouthful, I started to look for stuff other than the episodes and Bingo!!! We struck some good old gems on the net!

First we stumbled upon customsouthpark which opened sort of a gateway for two southpark fanatics who had been dying for some action.

Our first creation was a rather cool looking devil with a joint in his mouth which was aptly called 'Bhaatu' :)

"BHAATU"

we were not quite happy with the background though. Some more browsing led to the mecca of amateur southpark character creation , Planearium. this site has a 484 kb flash applcation which creates the charectors along with the background!!

Me and bhaatu took turns to create some pretty useful charectors which might just be used in the coming seasons of south park.

First came the jamaiican hot chick by me who was called 'i louu butters' because...well...she does.

'I Louu Butters'

She might get an appearance in the upcoming episode named 'bread butters' in which butters is catapaulted to fame when his solo album 'loo-loo-loo' is released.

Then bhaatu went on to create 'kill 'em all'.

'Kill 'em all!!'

This charector is supposedly the twin brother of mole who was kidnapped by saddam hussain after the terrance and phillip assassination plan failed, and brainwashed against satan.

next up was the our favorite 'butter's evil twin'

'Butter's evil twin'

This character is Butter's evil twin. He was genetically engineered by Dr. Mephisto by taking DNA from butter's Poo, when something went wrong and he broke loose in the town all by himself.

Bhaatu in his turn, went on to create 'wendy's hot sister'.
'wendy's hot sister'
She is, as the name suggests, wendy's sister who, also as the name suggests, is very hot!! She comes down to South park and joins Raisins.

Some fiddling with the Skin charector gave birth to our Girrl Friend 'Mary jane'.

"Mary Jane"

Mary jane is an angel who loves to smoke weed and be on a constant high. and as a pothead, Guitar come naturaaly to her. :P

Some more fiddling gave birth to a santa cap wearing , weed smoking Blue Skinny guy who was 'always happy' and thus was named.... 'i'm so happy'

'I'm so happy'

We believe that this charector is loosely based on toweliee.

Then came my Cartman looking 'assassin'.

'Assassin'

He is the brother of Eric Cartman who got lost in Kumbh ka mela and then turned out to be a deadly ....'ASSASSIN'!!(tan-tan-tanan!!)

Bhaatu, next went on to create Osama Jr.

'Osama Jr.'

He is the son of Osama and is an avid fan of the mole.

My answer to his Osama Jr was evident... Mrs. Osama !!

'Mrs. Osama'
Ms. Osama is a very religious lady (note the face is hidden by a shawl) but is believed to satisfy our Osama pretty well!!(note the rest of the attire!!)

Ending moments :

the last creations made by us were our own, starting with bhaatu who cud not find his style of beard anywhr, but still found a decent one. He still claims tht he has a Football in his room!

'Bhaatu'

mine was an Alter-ego of mine in south park named 'DICK'.

'My alter Ego - Dick!!'

:)

P.S: am leaving for home today. Got my sister's wedding to take care of. will b back on 1st Jan. For those to whom i will not b able to say so in personal, wishing u all a merry chrismas and a happy new year in advance.....tooooo advance tht is. :)

cyao

lost in a quint of darkness

2006-12-01T16:49:00.000+05:30

first of all sorry for the size of the pic...i cudn't find a larger prototype of the original anywhere.

This was a pic in the albums of one of my very dear friends and she has this habit of putting up abritrary pics and asking everyone to suggest a name for the pic.

I, as my habit is...went down to suggest the following for this pic

lost in a quint of darkness

the light falls from behind;
showing road to the shadows;
a fathom long it is...;
but pointing towards the gallows;

i try to rise ;
trying to resist the darkness;
i try to move forward;
in the tinged road of lowlessness;

David tries to fight again ;
as he did so long before;

but still the air seems different;
the feet seem so sore..;

but, i am the baron;
i am the czar;
i am the magnate;
i am the one who has to be at par;

So, Take me in as u want;
Take me to the depths;
I will always come out winning;
I will always be in front of u;
no matter who u are;

this was an instinctive thing which just came out and now that i think of it..it seems like a very amateur writing..man..i have mellowed down!! :P

UPDATE : just added a new counter..so it starts from ZERO again!!!....man...its sad to see the number at null again... :(

confessions of a Tired soul....

2006-11-14T07:40:00.001+05:30

He sat there in his chair with the Television pouring out the daily soap he watched every night, just the table light on, luminating what portion of his face was not covered by the shadow of his hand holding the burnt out Cigerette Butt close to his face. He had been smoking for almost a lifetime now, but never so intently had he tried to observe the insignificant piece of crap ready to be shoved under someone's shoes as he was doing right now. He knew something was different. Something so evident that his mind was overlooking it so easily. He had been staring at the butt for 15 mins now, when he suddenly came to his senses and noticed what he was doing. He had not been drinking today,neither was he high on his normal doze of marijuana. But still somehow, he could feel that his mind was trying to reach out for something it had never tried to grab. Something which he wanted to know for so long ... Something which he seemed to have known for so long but somehow had not cared to see whether he knew or not.

And then suddenly with a flash of lightning in his mind, everything was clear. He realized that maybe he was becoming the very person he had hated when he was a kid. That somehow, he had drowned himself into a whirlpool of things which he always looked down upon. He could feel it clearly that as a kid, he had been able to look at the world in a better perspective all along... that it was not always necessary to grow up to feel the reality around u..

At last, he was tired of growing up... at last, he was tired of trying to grab the sun.... at last... he was tired of being a prisoner of his own dreams...

The very butt which he had put in between his fingers to look beyond had shown him the world gone by.... the world which could have been..the world which should have been...

He kept looking at the butt as it burnt down to his fingers. The whole room jumped back in front of his eyes with a burning sensation. he quickly shoved the butt into the ashtray.

It has been said that life comes a full circle... And the things which make u weak are sometimes te ones which make u realize how strong u could have been....

the Television was still playing with his favorite daily soap on......

"Introduction To Internet"...INDEED

2006-11-01T19:47:00.000+05:30

IT Electives are given to students here to ...well..make them aware of the ongoing 'developments' in the cyberworld..so to speak. So when i was asked to fill up my option for my Elective, i took something called "Introduction to Internet" which, as the name suggests should have been something related to 'introducing us to the internet'..( i guess our professors have no idea how much we already have been introduced to it!!! ). So much so, that even wen i had an option to change my elective, i chose to stick by it..trying to show my faithfullness to what has been my companion since Day 1 here in KGPP.

And what can i say..I was not alone..a head strong 128 students had enrolled into the course having no idea at all what was gonna hit them.

and well...what we got was something which is a dream of every IITian..in a sense..well, cutting to the chase..our Prof.C.R.Mondal was somebody whom we could call a person with a 90 degree neckbone!!..always looking either downwards on the keyborad or book..or looking up on the screen. I think to prove us wrong sometimes, he just looks at us with a "Who is talking...??" followed by his now-famous "could u spread out a bit.."(i think he picked it up while doing one of his bedroom rituals with his wife!!)

and well...the best part comes here..he takes attendence at about 5 mins before the class is over. Till 10 mins before the class is over, the class has about 30 students (even this might be exaggerated!!) and when he starts taking attendence, the class is buzzing with people!!!

Magic???..NOT QUITE.. the secret to this trick(which has been perfected by us IITians over the years) lies to the open door which is near the benches in the class..a whole Hoard of people wait outside the class when he starts taking attendence and as soon as he does..his 90 degree neckbone doesn't allow him to see towards the door letting in students like mad cows in!!....

some of u might be wondering where the hell did all the study portion go..well..there are people who try to suck into what all this honey bee could provide but the real study goes into his website which incidentally he had provided in his initial lectures itself leaving us nothing to come to class for...

And if u are still wondering what do people actually do if ever they attend a class..well..herez wat happens...

this is the 3rd row of the class if u won't believe it...

another view of the same row..

and people who enjoyed a good night's sleep in their rooms..well..they do something worthwhile here..

Mr. Maiti here is completing his lab record here... [:P]

and ohh....how can we forget the magic trick that i was talking about??,..well..herez a little something of it..

and this is the sneaking tom Mr Abhishek Satpati getting ready for his Grand Entrance into the room...just checking whether the proff is ready for him or not.. :)

and well..i guess that the same story is repeated in some class or the other somewhere in this huge institute..atleast thats what students like us would wish for...

An apology...

2006-10-09T12:12:00.000+05:30

For the first time in my "Blogging Career" did I try to b Preachy in a sense...but u know the times when u get too very conscious about the thing u are doing and then completely mess it all up...

well...something like that happened to my last post..(which..for your kind info, has been deleted)...and now i know that i am never to try to be preachy and all.

i mean its not like anybody commented something or me getting wierd reviews of it..its just that i myself was not happy with the way the blog sounded!!! U see, if a 21 yr old guy thnks he is a wise guy fo sorts trying to condemn pornography then be sure he is trying to be an ass of a kind!!

it was maybe becoz u can only inspire others when u yourself are inspired by something or someone to write the blog..

so anyways...i hope my next post would not disappoint me...fingers crossed

a new chapter???

2006-09-22T10:56:00.000+05:30

lonng time has past since my last post..

don't ask me the reasons or my whereabouts..'coz i myself am unclear on some crossroads....but the thing is..after all this while..i am not getting any topics to write my blogs on...
i mean..ok..i know thrz a lot going on in this world at this moment with the whole news circuit going haywire and the exam fever just ending while i am typing here in KGP...

But still....nothing worthwhile to write abt..

lets c...the next time i find something to write abt..which i gues wil b tomorrow.. :)

i will definitely start my regular posting..

and oh..i got a new blog on the NDTV site..so soon u will b seeing my name flashing on the tv screen with "one of our viewera had this to say abt this thing.."... :)

so i guess that would be my news section for a while.. :)

got loads of things going on right now..lets see whethwer i can finish all the things i hae planned to start now..

i left mine on the carousel: being in love with Mary

2006-08-23T03:47:00.000+05:30

i left mine on the carousel: being in love with Mary

a fundoooo passage by a cool fellowmate here...

Dramatization personified...

Something between u and me...PART-2

2006-08-09T00:48:00.000+05:30

The turmoil inside me had not subsided..
Our fate had not yet been decided..!!

I met the goddess again after 2 days on our hunting grounds...

i waited for so long in tears..
for the answers and all its peers.
i needed them right from your lips...
at and last..i have found u here!!!

She was taken aback...for the first time had she encountered someone so adament on his decision..but so was she...Her reply was plain and simple..

u r impossible......
man! my answer is so plain in ur testimonial.....

I tried to explain my answers to all the charges she had...(P.S : She had not yet been acquanted with my reasonings...the hymns were read aloud again..and to that she replied..

hmmmmm.....do not rebuff th answer that i give
for i do not hav ny oth option to believe
i do not wish to be alone as you think
but this time let leave things as it is

I had already broken down to my feet...was on the verge of dropping on the cold ground what the god had given plenty to the earth but had forgotten to bless the humans with enough..Tears..

lets bury this to the ground..
and cover it up with soil...
but i am afaid of one thing...
earthquake can be the effect of its turmoil

i am ready to leave things as it is...
but the question is...should I leave it as it is???

so the mortal deserves...nothing???...
not even a chane to hear the voice of the mortal he had worshipped as goddess for so long??

Even gods break down seeing such a devotee down on its knees..not fer a wish..but for a prayer..

no...such a necessity wont ever arise
who in this hell wont speak to someone so alive
i sure 'll add u in my dark blue list
nd u cant listen to my voice in silent bliss

I had to reveal to what was in my heart..
Never did i want her to be a goddess..neither did i want her to be referred as one..
So i had to say it to her...

the dark blue list might be for the gods...
but u for one..are not the one...
who should have been up there...
and as i look at in despair...
u move away like a silent hill..
wich vanishes in thin air....

can i speak to u...ever???

She was happy and chirpy once again..i do not know why,....but even i felt better with tht..
she said..

.i'll add u to my gmail list....cauz i can get ur id....
yups....
after all this distant poetry...
wishin u a happy friendship day once again
amen

only one note kept playing in my mind at tht time...

so close..no matter how far...
cudn't be much more from the heart..
forever trusted who we are....
and nothing else matters..

..metallica

and then she replied..with the gracious smile of hers....that slight tinge of naughtiness gleaming off her halo...

lets b mortals again
nd no need to despair
cauz despair doesn sound as cool as u
well...hafta hurry
to attend de placement classes
bye....cya(nah) hear u l8r

i cud only comply gracefully....

nothing else mattered anymore.....

Something between u and me...

2006-08-06T21:48:00.000+05:30

6th August,2006....Friendship Day

A Question asked answered...

He whom we mourned as dead,
Living and glorious,
From the dark grave bath fled,
O'er death victorious;
Almost creative bliss
Waits on his growing powers;
Ah! Him on earth we miss;
Sorrow and grief are ours.
Yearning he left his own,
Mid sore annoy;
Ah! we must needs bemoan.
Master, thy joy!

From faust by the german poet, doctor, and scientist Goethe

Th goddess opened her eyes
To observe tis strange mortal
Who dared to cross this valley of death
nd enter chaos cunning portal
Th guardians of hell were amazed above
To see this defiant man survive the coldest frost

Welcome to death’s chaotic chamber
I am th goddess that satan hath forged
I sure am crazed to the earthlings below
But it is to see how hard I am
For this dark goddess does not break
Even though perfect diamonds can

O amazing scholar! O master composer
Don't disturb th graves tht u pass by
There remain ghosts of deep turbulence
That pray on th humans that crosseth her way

Interesting a creature as you r decreed above
I had to come down to th earth to study ur woe
Silence is th best I can giv thee
Again I do not wish to descend upon earth’s melee

Directing th lesser evils to sing th chorus
Turn away thee
Turn away thee
Tis temple of doom is not a place to be
Dreams die in this crazy abode
That r forged with earthly love
For I am no one but deaths ancient daughter

u need death’s ancient eyes
That see th light beyond these murky reeds
cause I ain’t a destroyer of light
Nor do I live in the graveyard in unrest

(Now directing the archangels to sing the chorus)
Turn away thee
Turn away thee
You are possessed with uncommon versatility
Turn to earth o master composer
What you look still lies in the earth below

u require th one who can dance until death
But I th one who sees me dance even when I stand still
u want the one who can converse loads
Yet I th one who hears me speak even when I silently look

But the wise evil wishes that you remain
Amazing amazing deadly amazing
Versatile versatile undeniably versatile
Crafty crafty killingly crafty
Forever whether you lie above or descend to the depths below

Life lies in death’s perfect haze
It shines upon those who dareth to cross her tacit maze

sighs and directs the heartless evils
Play these satanic verses till eternity closes its eyes and wishes to run away

An answer by me to the goddesss :

i do not need a goddess to love...
not do i require anything spl. to defeat death from above
all i need was someone by my side...
who cud sit by me till the pains subside...

i looked into your eyes...to find the one...
i stared down the haunting gallows
i found myself standing all alone...
in front of an idol over the sleepy hollow...

never did i ask for your heart..
never did i ask for its beat..
all i needed was a hand...
which cud hold me when i was in need..

o my goddess..never mistake me for someone special
never think of me just as a mere sight...
for i am someone u can never imagine..
and to u i wish a very good night..

u want someone to see u dance when u stand still...
look into my eyes..u will see the image of yours
fickering like a candle light
in the wind that tries to blow it away

u want someone to hear you in your silence..
listen to the wind and thy shall hear the words unspoken by me
the comments on the unspoken persona that u are..
a tribute to the mortal who was a goddess she was sure..

i never needed a goddess..
if that was what u thought..
i never saw u as a graveyard shift
thts wat it is to realize..

its all make-believe this world..
this crazy little world..
it is u who wanted to believe tht u are the evil one..
even when i saw in u an angel who was to be replaced by the sun..

it was u who wanted to make us believe
that u were destined to be alone
it was u who needed some cold-terd..
to feel free to roam around like a free bird

o mortal...who is still a goddess to me..
i ask for it again
what i had asked for then
i need it to live my life
i need it to die alive....

so i am asking for it again
that i had asked for then
o mortal u got me wrong...
and to think about it may take too long...
i knew the tuth all along..
that u were as mortal as i was for so long..

o my crazy diomand..let me be in there..
where no one has ventured before..
let the birds of freedom fly in the sunshine
or else...let me hear the ancient mariner's rhyme..

o heavenly genius
as u have always called me..
this is one wish that i wish i wanted myself to comply
to..but things which are out of reach
from ones control..can u think ever...shud i fly..
out of this window..out of this world..
and onto the rooftop
of the stairway to heaven where u reside...

let me be your hero...

Happy Friendship Day O Goddess...

- From the god who never was...

Crazzzzy Diomand..

2006-08-03T18:14:00.000+05:30

there is god...and then there is pink floyd!!!

eat that!!

and all i have to say to u Mr.Syd Barrett ,Mr.Roger Waters and Mr. David Gilmore... u have given me what i never had....life!!

shine on u Crazzy diomand..keep shining wherever u are...and we will always follow your light..till death do us part...!!

RAGGING IS BANNED IN IIT KGP........the truth behind the revelation

2006-08-03T02:41:00.000+05:30

times have changed..
and times are strange..
here i come but i ain't the same..

These words were once lipped by the legend ozzy osbourne. But right now this holds true for all the things happening in my Alma-Mater..IIT Kharagpur right now..

There has been an incredible delay from my side to write anything about this topic considering the things which have happened in the past 2 weeks here.And come to think of it,times have actually changed and like the winds in the Sahara Desert,it has taken a complete U-turn.

Things which were discussed and mocked about behind closed doors are now in the open and the strings of the puppet now lies in the hands of the Director of this prestigious institute which is undoubtedly one of the very best in the whole world(come to think of it,i am having my own doubts about whether could be called so in the near future).Things like Orientation Programme of the second yr. students in the senior halls are being given disgusting names like ragging and as if this was not enough,3rd yr. students are being labelled as "terrorists" and are being sued for indulging in this activity.

But I'd want to ask the all enlightened "ragging committee" of our institute whether they actually know the truth behind what actually goes on in the premises of the so-called "terror cells for 2nd yrs."??..and do they actually know the meaning of ragging in the first place??

ragging...going by the dictionary meaning...is termed as the practice of treating people as a piece of crap..or an article of very low value or in a very poor condition.so will the prestigious and know-it-all personelle please try to explain to us when in the heaven's name have the 3rd yrs ever treated the new members of the family(which we try to make in the respective halls here)as??on the very contrary,we are used to treat them as a worty piece of the crown we all wish to crown our hall with...

the whole idea of the this OP as it is commonly known in the hostels is very simple.. bind the students as one..a a family..so that they do not know thir batchmates or the seniors as for that mattr,not as mere acquantainces but as a part of thier own family!! this "shameful" activity (as the professors like to put it) tries to make them believe that the world is not as rosy-eyed as people would like it to believe.. people perish in it just as a helpless boat does in a cyclone.it helps them to look into themselves for what they or their parents have not been able to discover..

It has to be understood that 2nd yrs. are not made to wake up at 5 am in the morning and made to run 2.2 just for mare fun of the "wily" 3rd yrs..but for their own good..and infact,the 3rd yrs themselves have to wake up at 4 in the morning to make them do so...

Weekly competitions in the hall are a things must for all the people who themselves do not know what they are capable of..things varying from creative writing compititions to software designing compititions are not what i think any terrorist would have done to the people he wants to torture!!!!

ever wondered what makes IIT stand out from all the other institutes in this country??In other places,the real essence of ragging is lost with physical excersion of the freshers which was definitely not the reason ragging was actually started in the first place.How else would u learn how to open up to your seniors and act as a brother to them?..i mean,u can't go to a complete stranger and tell them whats bugging u or ask for help..!!

How many friends could anyone make being confined in the self-made cacoon of uncertainty and self-doubt anyway??..and i can challenge my life on the fact that after one moth of intense OP session in any hall in IIT KGP,when any member of the hall is in trouble,the hall stands by him...no matter how big is the problem!!!
the phrase "together we stand" is what the whole hall and hall tradition all about which....for the info...according the director.. is what hampering the institute from achieving its target!!(Target my foot..the only target i can see from my reference point is a rajya sabha seat!!!)

..and to think that the whole IIT tradition is slipping out of hand like sand just due to the folly of one 2nd year!!...

IIT KGP IS DYING...and no one can do anything about it!!!

i would have gone on and on forever but i think me writing a blog or Bhaat Sessions in Bhaaski will not do any good for us...whenever someone tries to raise a voice against the system,it is said to be silenced..either by force..or by power..But let me ask one thing..DOES A CROWD HAVE A VOICE??...NO!!!..they are shouts..shouts which cannot be supressed by anything but an action in their will!!..So guys..i think when 1000 people join hands against a system which is out to destroy its own existence,it can not only rock the NETAJI AUDITORIUM..it can also rock the system..and then..probably thw whole nation!!

just for the heck of it.....

2006-07-24T20:00:00.000+05:30

it seems to have been a looong long time since my last blog.
ideas came and went in the open for all mind of mine and though i had enuff material to write of in this interval,i refrained myself from doin tht..not because i didn't have an inclination towards writing one,but because for the past 2 weeks it had become some sort of an addiction to me..writing blogs and saving them as drafts..and then deleting them...so i decided to take a break..

but now,i think it is time for INTEL to make a comeback in this plethoric world of bloggers..where everyone is welcome to express his views...sometimes i think what if the indian democracy would have allowed our fundamental rights to be precticed in the same way as the blogosphere...we would have seen people like salman rushdie and suhel seth ruling the roost all around!! consider this...suhel seth as the prime-minister!! people bring their problems to him..and he greets them with "u are the piss of the society..people like u are the reason the society is not allowed to deveop..."

And with rushdie around,it would be like even grounds can hit punches to u for walking on them..(refer midnight's children by him..)

quite a strange place our mind is...come to think of it,we just use 15% of our brains..and we have already made it to space. i think by the rest 85% we can capture atleast the blogosphere..if not more!!
he hehe

just for a change...

2006-07-17T23:27:00.000+05:30

"the thing about growing up is u start worrying more about your shoes getting wet than whether u are taking the long path home!!!

- sohail

Smokers : Life Uncensored..

2006-07-06T19:49:00.000+05:30

Smoking...a hobby for some..a habit for some.an addiction for many..and a matter of controversy for everyone of us...I have been in symbiosis with some of the institute's most well known smokers for the last 2 years now ..and after coming across almost all types of smokers there are..i have been able to put forth u..the simple yet true...life of a Smoker...

Basically,A Smoker's life can be devided into 8 stages...right from the beginning to the end...

STAGE 1 :

when u like to fib your friend to believing that u actually smoke and borrow cigerettes from them just to take the smoke into your mouth and them spit it out like a coal furnace or something...your mouth smells like hell..but man...u actually feel like a MAN !!

STAGE 2 :

when u start taking the smoke inside and cough pretty often . the friends from whom u still borrow your cigerettes from avoid giving it to u just because u seem to wet the filter . Nonetheless.u plead your way to the glory of tranquility and take a puff or two.....before coughing and passing the cigerette on....

COUGH!COUGH!COUGH!......COOOOOUUUGHHH!!!

STAGE 3 :

this is the point when u start taking the purse out of your pocket to pay for the cigerettes...u start with buying 1 navy-cut/classic from the nearby shop...u go to your room,close it..then shut switch on the comp.put on some music and smoke to glory...before long it increases to 3..sometimes 4..not more than that (usually!!!) u tend to show off to your friends by offering them one sometime in the day and yes..u learn about the 3 rules of smoking :

1.Thou shalt not take more than 3 puffs at one go when sharing it with others..

2.Thou shalt not give cigerette to a non-smoker until they ask for it themselves..

3.Thou shalt never refuse to give cigerette to a smoker..u may hide them before they come to notice it..

STAGE 4 :

It usually happens after 3 to 4 months after commencement of stage 3.

when u start thinking that 4 cigerettes are not enough for u for one day and u start buying whole packets just to save the time and energy to go to the shop each and everytime u have the terrible urge to smoke.u start smoking in public..even when u are at home..u seem to 'run' away to smoke.this is the time when u think smoking is the most essential thing to do after waking up in the morning ..even before going to attend the nature's call!!!..infact,it is very commom for some to be not be able to go to the toilet without having a puff!!

Stage 5 :

when u realize that smoking has started taking a toll over your stamina and u have started feeling sort of laziness with all the smoking.u start thinking exactly how much cigerettes would cause cancer..and with all our non-smoker friends always trauting u to stop smoking..this fear of yours sometimes starts giving u nightmares..

STAGE 6 :

when u start decreasing your cigerette intake...though it may be a herculian task..slow and easy does it...u start paying more attention to your diet..start spending more time with your girl friend..soon the wrd spreads that u have decreased your cigerette intake...soon the count decreases to 1 or 2...and then,one day..u want to take a break...and qualla...no cigerette for a day....then another...soon it is almost 2 months without cigerette...though in the initial days,u just pray not to bump into one of your smoking friends,who just as a mattter of factly,offfer u a cigerette which u can't refuse...but soon it all fades away...

Stage 7 :

when after 2 months u suddenly bump into one of your friends in a party or something,and he offers u a cigerette..u simply refuse..but he is persistent...and then,after a while u suddenly think.."well..it has been 2 months man...i wonder what one puff will do to me!" and then,the whole world takes a 360 degree revolution as u take the first puff...then back to the shop...1 cigerette the first day...3 (or usually 4)the second..and back to square 1 after a week or two...so now,u don't want to leave your best buddy again...and there u go again...

STAGE 8 :

when u eventually have to stop smoking..rather u are forced to stop smoking...either due to health problems..or u are not there to smoke at all...it all ends here....

for some...Stage 6 is the end...for some...there is even a Stage 9!!...

it may be a matter of controvercy for everyone..but it might be a moment of truth for some of them..

poems anyone???

2006-07-05T15:59:00.001+05:30

i was just going through the blogs of some of my college-mates when i was surprised to realize that 75% of the bloggers from my institute were from the fairer sex! a further survey revealed that 90% of their blogs consisted of poems.

"Poems everybody..i am glad the lad here is making himself a poet!!"...he he he..sorry.cudn't resist!(for all those who could not understand..please watch the video of 'another brick on the wall - pink floyd')

i decided to take my survey a bit further and was astonished to find that all the girls in blogosphere had atleast 2 poems in their main page! So why do they post poems in their blogs?is it to show their superior intelligence over the mortal ones? or is it that they could not express their feeling in the usual,non-creative way in a not-needing-four-lines-to-complete-a-sentence format?

while most of them revolve around things related to the heart..a full circle right from their parents to their love..,to the dark side of themselves..revealing confessions of wanting to commit homicide..or suicide..,to hjourneys far and wide..to the innermost part of the earth..the girls have'seen it and conqored it all'

sometimes i wonder...the words in these poems might be a sort of a portal for the ladies to express their innermost desires.girls normally are not accustomed to shout out or fight or reveal their desires in the same way as we guys can...so they have to put it in a tinned can..spray it with lavender-perfume and then publish it in the form of words..so that the lesser mortals may take their time understanding and appreciating the 'between the lines' stuff...

it is all the more interesting to see that most of the postings are in the third person format...they don't say directly that the poem is about themselves..or that the following incident happened in their own lives..all they do is invent a "she" and then this 'she' of theirs is experimented upon in all the ways possible..right from the mushy-mushy love,the heart-wrenching separation from her love,to horrifying nightmares and suicide and murder attempts. is it because ladies are afraid of people knowing what their tru life and identity is?..or is it beause they can't see themselves in the mirror for who they are....this,my friend,is anybody's guess.

think over it....as for the answers..as the ladies say..."read between the lines baby..."

Amyville revisited

2006-07-03T16:00:00.001+05:30

ok ok..so it was not my last blog...i guess i have still a couple more boring stuff to write in this section. just to make myself feel good that i had not abandoned my post!! he he he

u know...nowadays..i have got this strange new passion of mine..roaming al the time into amyville(check my second post from this one!).I don't know what it is that makes it special..but everytime i watch it i get this strange feeling of rejoice inside me.seeing amy enjoying her life..even after doing so much in the world of creativity...it is simply amazing how she gets time to make these simple , silly and yet thoughtful videoz of hers...

while watching these videoz,i felt the energy emanating from this mamzing lady..the innocence in her even after she has matured so much is simply amazing!her playfulness...how she enjoys herself even in solitude.

u know..it is astonishing how small things like watching a 30 second video can make u realize what u had been missing all these years.how it is more easy to enjoy yourself and follow your heart than to sit on the toilet seat and fret about all the things which have gone wrong and how u have the worst luck in the world to have end up in a place like this.

so as amy always says.."FIGHT LIFE WITH CREATIVITY"

go ahead....love yourself..it isn't hard to do so....

Welcome to Amyville

2006-07-01T22:36:00.000+05:30

Welcome to Amyville

guys..the wonders of video blogging !!!

just browsing through this blog gave me the crazzzy idea of going along and buying a 15000/- digital camera...but then i think even i wil start video blogging now that i have my small but useful enough mobile (with the video camera facility).

so guys..watch this place....'coz u might b in for a big surprise the next time u visit it!!!

MUHAAHAHAHHAA

chao for now!

going with a dream..returning witha nightmare

2006-06-05T01:20:00.001+05:30

I usually never read the forwards nowadays as i used to in my first year here in IIT. However,while going though my mails today my eyes were caught up o the words "SOFTWARE ENGG." in the inbox..I thought it to b another one of those college jokes about how an engineer is fairing in the office.
so,just in the mood,i happened to open up the mail to read it.
This is the mail that was forwarded :

ONE BEDROOM FLAT... WRITTEN BY AN INDIAN SOFTWARE ENGINEER..-

As the dream of most parents I had acquired a degree in Software Engineer
and joined a company based in USA, the land of braves and opportunity.
When I arrived in the USA, it was as if a dream had come true.

Here at last I was in the place where I want to be. I decided I would be
staying in this country for about Five years in which time I would have
earned enough money to settle down in India.

My father was a government employee and after his retirement, the only
asset he could acquire was a decent one bedroom flat.

I wanted to do some thing more than him. I started feeling homesick and
lonely as the time passed. I used to call home and speak to my parents
every week using cheap international phone cards. Two years passed, two
years of Burgers at McDonald's and pizzas and discos and 2 years watching
the foreign exchange rate getting happy whenever the Rupee value went down.

Finally I decided to get married. Told my parents that I have only 10 days
of holidays and everything must be done within these 10 days. I got my
ticket booked in the cheapest flight. Was jubilant and was actually
enjoying hopping for gifts for all my friends back home. If I miss anyone
then there will be talks. After reaching home I spent home one week going
through all the photographs of girls and as the time was getting shorter I
was forced to select one candidate.

In-laws told me, to my surprise, that I would have to get married in 2-3
days, as I will not get anymore holidays. After the marriage, it was time
to return to USA, after giving some money to my parents and telling the
neighbors to look after them, we returned to USA.

My wife enjoyed this country for about two months and then she started
feeling lonely. The frequency of calling India increased to twice in a week
sometimes 3 times a week. Our savings started diminishing. After two more
years we started to have kids. Two lovely kids, a boy and a girl, were
gifted to us by the almighty. Every time I spoke to my parents, they asked
me to come to India so that they can see their grand-children.

Every year I decide to go to India. But part work part monetary conditions
prevented it. Years went by and visiting India was a distant dream. Then
suddenly one day I got a message that my parents were seriously sick. I
tried but I couldn't get any holidays and thus could not go to India. The
next message I got was my parents had passed away and as there was no one
to do the last rights the society members had done whatever they could. I
was depressed. My parents had passed away without seeing their grand
children.

After couple more years passed away, much to my children's dislike and my
wife's joy we returned to India to settle down. I started to look for a
suitable property, but to my dismay my savings were short and the property
prices had gone up during all these years. I had to return to the USA.

My wife refused to come back with me and my children refused to stay in
India. My 2 children and I returned to USA after promising my wife
I would be back for good after two years.

Time passed by, my daughter decided to get married to an American and my
son was happy living in USA. I decided that had enough and wound-up every
thing and returned to India. I had just enough money to buy a decent 02
bedroom flat in a well-developed locality.

Now I am 60 years old and the only time I go out of the flat is for the
routine visit to the nearby temple. My faithful wife has also left me and
gone to the holy abode.

Sometimes I wondered was it worth all this? My father, even after staying
in India, had a house to his name and I too have the same nothing more.

I lost my parents and children for just ONE EXTRA BEDROOM.

Looking out from the window I see a lot of children dancing. This damned
cable TV has spoiled our new generation and these children are losing their
values and culture because of it. I get occasional cards from my children
asking I am alright. Well at least they remember me.

Now perhaps after I die it will be the neighbors again who will be
performing my last rights, God Bless them. But the question still remains
'was all this worth it?'

I am still searching for an answer................!!!!

After reading the mail,i just wondered ... all the trouble people get into for going abroad .. all the hardships that they face..is it worth it?The IT Boom in the past 10 years has given the engineers here in INDIA an oppertunity to go there and BY JOVE..have they held on to it !!!But,what they don't think of right now..is what next??..what about their family there..what about the family that is going to b??are they going to b INDIAN??..or AMERICAN..

what if they end up like the engineer who went abroad with a dream and returned with a nightmare??

i guess i am going to sleep off the mail!!..wat abt u?

a confession...

2006-06-04T07:52:00.000+05:30

There are no more barriers to cross,
All I've in common with the uncontrollabe and the insane, the vicious and the evil,
All the mayhem I've caused n' my better indifference to order, I've now surpassed,
My pain's constant and sharp,

My punishment continues to elude me,
And I gain no deeper knowledge of myself,
No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling,
This confession has meant nothing !!!

T.S.Elliot..The Maestro!!!

2006-06-03T06:03:00.000+05:30

T. S. Eliot: The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock ------------------------------------------- "Let us go then, you and I, When the evening is spread out against the sky Like a patient etherized upon a table; Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets, The muttering retreats Of restless nights in one-night cheap hotels And sawdust restaurants with oyster-shells: Streets that follow like a tedious argument Of insidious intent To lead you to an overwhelming question . . . Oh, do not ask, "What is it?" Let us go and make our visit. In the room the women come and go Talking of Michelangelo. The yellow fog that rubs its back upon the window-panes, The yellow smoke that rubs its muzzle on the window-panes Licked its tongue into the corners of the evening, Lingered upon the pools that stand in drains, Let fall upon its back the soot that falls from chimneys, Slipped by the terrace, made a sudden leap, And seeing that it was a soft October night, Curled once about the house, and fell asleep. And indeed there will be time For the yellow smoke that slides along the street, Rubbing its back upon the window-panes; There will be time, there will be time To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet; There will be time to murder and create, And time for all the works and days of hands That lift and drop a question on your plate; Time for you and time for me, And time yet for a hundred indecisions, And for a hundred visions and revisions, Before the taking of a toast and tea. In the room the women come and go Talking of Michelangelo." ...................... Please Read more .. This is a nice poetry.. which describes the complexities of human life and relationships in this contemporary era!

Neo vs Me

2006-06-02T14:43:00.000+05:30

As Morpheus had onc sid to Neo in the training chamber…

Morphues : “how did I beat u??”

Neo : “u are fast!!”

Morpheus: “U think me being faster or stronger has anything to do with my muscles in THIS place??.........U THINK THTS AIR U ARE BREATHING NOW??”

These lines were the ones which had inspired me through out my JEE times…I had always seen myself as Neo Fighting the Machines Alone…and I know I am not the only one who was inspired by this movie!

MATRIX was like a cult movie for many spec-wearing geeks(as they are called) which actually made them feel like a person who knows something I wrong with the world and though he knows what it is…he can’t pin-point it!!..” unfortunately no one can b told what the matrix is…u have to see it for yourself!!”

Now times have changed and with it..everything else has..even me!

Now “The Wall”impresses me more than a “Fanaa”!!

The music interest has changed from the likes of “Bachstreet boys” to “Pink Floyd” and “Jimmy Page”.

Now, a Navy-Cut pack is preferred over a Chocolate bar…. And we have Whisky for starters in hotels!!

I no-longer watch Matrix with as much zeal as i used to when I was a teenager ( tht I can proudly say tht I am an undiluted adult now!!).But,watching it again one lonely night sitting alone in my dark room…I suddenly found myself looking to a wide-eyed fat boy sitting in front of the T.V trying to understand how did Neo make it … and why can’t he???

Growing up in the 80s and 90s (India)

2006-06-01T22:21:00.000+05:30

Chalo lekar apni Tobu Cycle (sai-kull, to be precise). Welcome.

When Gold Spot was the zing thing, Rabbit was a sythentic gum, Pepsi Cola was flavoured ice in a little cylindrial plastic bag, Made In India was a hit song, Kachh-limbu was the kid who was weak at sports, Chacha Choudhary's brain was faster than a computer and Mithunda was a hero....that was the time I grew up in...the 80s and 90s.

This blog is basically a compilation of my childhood days, a lot of which is inspired by articles, blogs, web sites, forums, music and photographs of the 80s and 90s that I have been come across over the last couple of years.

I've been reminded of so many interesting tidbits of those times and always thought of putting all those memories down in one place. This is the beginning of what I hope becomes....well i don't know what....probably just a trip down memory lane, to start with.

Growing up happens in a heartbeat. One day you're in diapers, the next day you're gone. But the memories of childhood stay with you for the long haul.
-The Wonder Years (TV Series)

VQ is the next BIG thing!!

2006-05-28T14:40:00.000+05:30

This is a one of the good blogs that I came across while blogging away… I hope u will enjoy reading this!!!

(image placeholder)

Are you a virgin??” “Hmmm…mmm…I lost virginity of my lips and hmmm…oh yeah, I got butt-spanked by a cute chick, but am still waiting to have sex. Does that count me as a virgin?”
You’ll come across such dumb dude and dudettes all around you on this planet.
I strongly believe, there are two things in life that people are always confused and shy to talk about openly – Intelligence and Virginity. To take care of Intelligence, smart people came up with a small test called as IQ TEST, where you try to solve few questions in a limited amount of time. The score displayed after the test can then be proudly punched on your ID card, and you get one more topic to boast around while sipping beer with your dumb friends.
But for virginity, we are still waiting for a similar test to come out for quite a long time now. Until and unless someone really thinks hard and put 100% effort behind designing a test, we’ll still be surrounded by confused people like the one discussed above.
To eliminate such confused people from planet earth, I and few of my retard and idle friends are coming out with VQ (Virginity Quotient) test very soon. Am not going to provide much of details in here, but only thing I’m going to say is that it’s going to be the NEXT BIG thing as far as online quizzing is concerned. Right now we are planning to compete with BRITANNICA CHILD Quiz and COMPLAN CHILD GENIOUS, but soon there will be more competitors as VQ will spread its wings on the internet.
I know people are scared of taking tests, especially online tests, so just incase you wanna glimpse of what kinda Q’s you are going to face in VQ, kindly go through a model test paper below.
Kindly reply only in TRUE and FALSE. Please avoid using MAYBE.

Two virgin ducks and two non-virgin dogs have a total of fourteen legs.

One of the following numbers is a part of sexual activity – 6, 9, 69, 44.

SPANK when spelled backwards will sound like KNAPS

Mary has only forty-eight dollars, but she can buy a bicycle that costs one hundred twenty dollars, (disregarding tax) if she borrows fifty-seven dollars from Jane and fifteen dollars from Jill only after sleeping with him.

Lesbian and Gay are 2 different categories of people.

If Paula looks into her bathroom mirror and touches her left ear with her right hand, Paula’s image seems to touch its right ear with its left hand.

Does the reply to above question be different if Paula is a non-virgin

If the word, “SEX,” is written under the word, “SEX,” and another word, “SEX,” is written under the 2nd word “SEX,” then the word, “SEX” is formed diagonally.

Position 34 described under sacred book of sex, KAMASUTRA, appears on page 56.

President Bill Clinton had sex with one of the following number of females – 5, 10, 15, 25

By now, I think you guys have pretty good picture about what kind of questions you’re going to face in case you plan to appear for this quiz. With all the hard-work me and my friends are putting up during the weekends, I know we are capable of changing this world and breed new era of shameless people who can boast around about their VQ openly in public.Good luck!!

can it be....that we are actually being watched??

2006-05-11T06:42:00.000+05:30

I had been thinking of putting these thoughts to words for quite some time now.
Some people might think my thinking to be a bit twisted , others may find it as a DOOR to a new world!!(LITERALLY!!)

So here goes..

Ever since I saw those English Sci-Fi movies on my worn out B/W T.V at home, I had wondered that could there be life out there ?? Cud there be someone watching us… looking for us??

We humans have put in a lot of effort in this direction…
Some INTELLIGENT beings have even gone on to give theories that our EARTH was one of a kind… it was JUST perfect for life .. no other place was suitable enough for life!! According to me,the theories are both right AND wrong!!

OK..lets assume for once that there IS no other place in this universe,be it a planet , an asteroid , a meteor.. anything… like earth. So HUMANS… mark my word “HUMAN RACE” cannot survive in any other place. The theories are correct up to this point.
Now begins the fun part. Cud there be no other Species which cud survive what is considered by many as the ‘extreme’ climate ??

Can’t there be species which survive without any atmosphere??(maybe for them,air might even be poisenous!!)They might have meteor showers just as we have our precipitation!!
They might cherish the ultraviolet rays as we cherish the sun rays…
They might even be smaller than our range of detection of our strongest microscope!!!
Who knows??

Our boundaries are limited.Till now we have just been able to explore aur Boundary Wall and we have already started making comments about wat is and wat is not there in the Universe…

WELL….

There might even be another possibility!!!

WHAT IF….

Consider this possibility as well…

When we discovered the microscopic organisms…we were fascinated!!we came to know that even something that small couls exist!!what if our EARTH… is just a mere dust particle in some other “EARTH”!!Ever thought of that?? [:P]

What if someday we suddenly find ourself under a giant microscope being examined…
Then what will we do?? We might just feel like the first amoeba being examined under the glass!
So tell me…who’s the “guinea pig” now???

[:P] [:P] [:P]